You already said it...

YOU feel like a loser!

Hopefully you learned...generally loans are ALWAYS gifts.  And this is not just for a provider loan..but if you did the same for a family member or friend.

But just remember..."He who does not expect shall NOT be disappointed".

So don't expect anything and..well you got the rest of it.

I never expect it back if it is a good friend who is genuinely in need.

And it better be a really good friend cuz all others get the "go fuck your self" treatment lmfao

That's pretty good. You have loaned to two providers. One followed through and paid you back the other did not.
I've found that's better than par for the course. I've loaned strippers and providers money. My return rate is about .333. I never gave what I couldn't consider money gone for good.

You simply have to consider it a lesson learned. If you loan it be prepared to never see it again.
Yes, with friends and relatives too.

crissake "borrowing money to providers", i feel like i'm playing poker with my brother's kids.

I've had providers send me text messages before in the past asking for money, to help them pay for this or that.

But what you have to remember is a provider has dozens of phones number, so chances are you're not the only one she's asking. Providers study their clients, and see which ones who they can run the tables on.

I had a provider ask me once if I could pay her 200.00 cell phone bill, because she was flat broke, and the her cell phone service was threaten to cut off her phone, and she needs her phone to take calls.  My response, "you're a provder, if you really need 200.00 to pay your phone bill, post an ad on backpage like you always do, see a few clients, and I'm pretty sure you'll be able to pay that phone bill.

those times it is paid back, that is just a bonus.  Even for the best intentioned lady, many never get their financial life in order.

that sucks dude!

I would say , live and learn, she is never gonna pay you back unfortunately she is a scammer and she took advantage of your kindness and it seems she has no intention of paying you back

When I loan anybody money, I don't see it, in my head, as a loan, I see it as a gift, that way if they never pay me back, there is no loss of love

My 2 cents

Peace

But I did lend some cash to a now retired ATF stripper years ago.  I did it twice-the first time she paid it back, the second time she didn't. Batting 500 is ok I guess but, honestly, any money you lend to a sex worker is not money you should ever expect to see again.

If you don't like feeling like a loser don't act like one. Any half-way decent sex worker is making more money than the guy she is trying to borrow from.  If she can't handle her finances to begin with why would you assume she will do the right thing by you?

Paying the loan off with sessions rarely works out.  Once she has spent the money she needs more.  If she has to choose between seeing you to pay off her debt or seeing a guy who is going to pay her you are going to lose every time.

Learn the lesson and move on...

I schedule a meeting.  I get the pleasure & she gets the cash.  I AM helping her out...  but there are no IOUs.  
I have given money & gifts to an ATF who was hard pressed...  but it was always an outright gift.  
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