I've been seeing one provider for a number of years.  Of course, you always know in the back of your mind that at some point, things will end.

As that time approaches, I have found that I'm really unprepared for that moment.  It's going to be difficult to part ways.  She's seen me through some rough times, and knows quite a bit about me.

I can see that she's played a larger role than I realized.  I know that I'll miss the conversations we have - and a lot more than just BCD time.

I know, I know....grow some balls.  It's just a fucking business.  People come, people go.  I'll move on, and so will she...but I'll be a better man because of her.

I understand completely. Almost no matter how well prepared I declare myself to be, it still hurts.

Although it is not clear whether this will or has already happened, just recognizing this potential eventuality puts you in a better prepared place than others.

It's not balls, it's the big brain.

don't get too involved.

We come into this world and die alone. Always remember that.

I always try to have that "dont get attatched" mindset, but were only human and after seeing someone for YEARS theres bound to be a connection.

Hang in there.

God I hate cliches and one word answers!  The are seldom a perfect fit and never really add much!

I haven't been at this long enough to have the seperation anxiety but I can picture it happening and I can relate.  I get depressed when I get rid of a car after 4 years!!

If there is an inevitable end in sight start to ween yourself off her.  The worst scenario is that she ends a session with "so I'm leaving the business and won't be seing you any more".

Like Gambler's song about the card game;

"You got to know when to hold, when to fold and walkaway".

This is true in life as well:

You got to know when to hold and when to walk and never look back!

I have had many, many girlfriends in my life and relationship ended for numerous reasons. Never called any of them and try impose anything on them ever. My parting words always is, "Call me if you ever need anything, ever" and some did and helped them if I could and never trying to rekindle anything with anyone.

It is all part of life in civilian and P4P. One has to know, how s/he will handle any situation calmly, logically and rationally without killing oneself in the process and that is called self confidence. It is something like commonsense, either you have it or you don't and it is definitely not being Macho or having huge muscles but it mental muscle.

Some valuable insights & advice to be gleaned from here. Many on this board have said to avoid
this sort of situation, see several providers over a span of time & not one exclusively.

A good piece of advice.

Escorts are human too.  
If I've seen someone for that long I like something about them.  We have some shared history.

Things end in private or pro life.  There is a sadness.  That's life.  Joy and Sadness...

These people that say don't be human... stay unattached.   I feel sorry for them in a way becuz having some connection is part of the enjoyment (for me anyway).  Connection is what life is about.

I respect your ability to be open, to feel.  It's nice to know there are men out there that see this as a bit more than bumping into someone in a crowd (?)  OK... maybe more like dancing with someone in a nightclub.  That seems nicer.  I can understand that perspective STILL your emotion is refreshing and appreciated.

Know in the end you have enriched each others lives.  But , hey.. dont' fret about things till its time to fret.  No reason to dwell on being sad till its in your face.  

I guess you just have to let her go the same you would with any friendship, with love, and be grateful for your good fortune. I'm sure she is too.

Tamara G x

Yes, we all know it is a business, we are in it for the money, guys are in it for the sex but..
When you see a client regularly for a good period of time you do develop a sort of closeness and friendship. You talk about each others lives, good and bad, share things you might not share with anyone else. Eventually it will end and I know from personal experience that you feel like you lost a good friend.
Your feelings do not make you a sissy, a mangina or whatever else you may be called on here, it simply makes you human

I see several providers whom I have known for many years, one in particular over twenty years, and several others for ten plus years.

The secret is to adore and love them for the few hours you see them, then let each other be.  These gals still rock my world.

The ones whom I have had to cast off (or vice versa) are the ones where too many strings started to get attached.

Live and learn, as they say.

Let us face it separation anxiety and lost is one of the hidden cost of LTR.  Every relationship has it alpha and omega and when one ends usually a better one starts that relives the anxiety and lost.  Move on and get it over with!!! That is the best preparation!

Thanks, Alea.  I think I'm just realizing all the little things that have happened over the years, that show me that this is more than just a one hour encounter.

I guess I want to make sure I thank her for all those things.  They may be little things at the time, but they add up to things that have really enriched my life.

As someone that held my father's hand as he took his last breaths, and sat by his side for every day of his last 3 weeks on earth, I am holding back my rage as I say to you...STFU.

Yeah, you hit a nerve.

and as soon as ALL realize this, the better off you'll be!

It's great when you can form a bond with someone....but sometimes it truly is just time to move on.  You'll feel better in time and will hopefully just have fond memories of your time together.

My grandfather and great uncle died having the gratitude of an entire nation with them. Laid on their chest were the 'decorations' they received for their service.And they were multiple.

Like LP i refrain from the RED FACED response.

May I include your gratitude?

Everything is a business in some form or another.  Just because because your paying for something does not mean you dont appreciate it or miss it when they are gone.  I miss menu items at restuarants when they change the menu.  I have had a favorite resturant close after a 20 plus year relationship and it left a empty hole in both my stomach and heart.  If you are that cold that you form no bond whatsoever with a repeat provider I feel sorry for you.  If it was only about getting off it might be different but when you invest time energy and money and actually enjoy both the company and the sex then that is a relationship on some level and most of the time there will be a withdrawl period.

I form no emotional bond with any provider whatsoever. For me it IS about getting off and that's it! I don't want to know about her life, her children or her problems. Just like I will not tell her anything about myself because its none of her concern. Since I don't see a provider when I am in a relationship (that to me is the lowest of the low)I have limited providers that I use. I have this one reliable gorgeous blond that knows when I call her its because I am going there to get off and leave in about 30 to 40 minutes. There is no bond with her besides the sex and that's the way I like it. I have been seeing her for over 10 years and have never had any problems. My guess the way she sees it that its a easy, make money quick situation for her without having to go through the bullshit ooh and aah motions. Hand over the donation, get naked, get down to business, get off, get out and we are both happy afterwards. Me cause I got off and her because her pocket book is heavier. It works for both her and myself and that's all that matters.

Truth.  And I was there up until a little bit ago where for me it's business 99% of the time for most of my visitors but there are a few and I mean a few like 3 that if I don't see for a while I actually miss them and it's not just because they give me a good amount of money. Some connection is fine because you become so familiar with them it's understandable.