My mother's "Modern Romance" magazines, and never returned to innocence.
It was at the summer lake home, off in my own little space in the guest trailer's back bedroom, where I had unlimited access to all of my mom's magazines. She used to stay up late and read, drinking cocktails and smoking cigarettes. My father worked on the road most of the time, so she just stayed up late at night, fantasizing about sex and intimacy. I wonder if she had a vibrator? She certainly wasn't living the "Modern Romance" life. The only time she and dad had sex was when they were making babies, or she was just drunk enough to "do it", and not put up a fight about it (a Stoic Finnish girl).
I read those magazines for two summers. My older sister used to come to the trailer and smoke Salem cigarettes and drink Old Milwaukee beer, tell me about boys....what they want, and how to "do it". Purely mechanical information. That's all I needed. Hell, I had the drama down, from all of that great reading!
I was getting my education.
And then, in my 14th year, a freshman in high school, I experienced the very same things that I had been reading and learning about from sis with a hard bodied, 17 yr. old boy. God, he made me wet. We went to wild parties on the Old Midway Road that summer, making out in grassy fields, high on pot and Ripple Wine. He would unzip my hiphuggers and put his finger inside of me. I loved that. I went out with him for six months before we drank enough Boone's Farm Strawberry Wine and "did it".
I went from being a Football cheerleader to a Bad Girl that summer. But, hey. I still got good grades in school, sang in the choir, and the art teacher loved me.
But, the sex...I've never not liked it. I was made this way, and I feel sorry for those women out there who, for some reason, feel that it's not necessary, don't want to "do it", or maybe think that it's not "right" to be pleasured or please their man sexually.
Maybe they should have been reading some of their mom's True Story or Modern Romance magazines!! Worked for me.
And here we are today. We have TER, a forum that has explicit information in which we can all learn from.
We're getting an education. And, I must say, We've come a Long Way, Baby!! And I love it.
