I'm not a big poster on these boards but this is something I wanted to share.

I met my ATF months ago through an agency,we really clicked because at one point in my life we both worked in the same industry(hotel).We knew many of the same people,etc...(btw..she is a part time provider,works when she needs extra cash,or wants to have some fun!)
We would meet regularly and have a great time.Last month was my bday and she came over and we had mind blowing sex and fun.
I noticed that I was starting to develop strong feelings toward her(yeah..uh-oh).
I was becoming uncomfortable when she would talk about other dates and would think about her alot.I was becoming depressed because I knew I had to stop seeing her.
One her last visit we had lots of fun but the days following I was more depressed.Time to put an end to this.
My plan was to call her one last time and tell her I wouldn't be seeing her anymore.I brought her a parting gift(i had never given her a gift,just took good care of her with $$$).Yeah,maybe a dumb move but I just wanted her to remember me and the great times we had.Just the type of guy I am.
Called her up and we talked for abit.We were gonna make plans for that night but we ending up talking about what I wanted to say in person.This turned into me getting very angry and shouting.I said I was sorry for raising my voice,she advised me to calm down and we could talk or meet later....Maybe Not
As the hours passed I was starting to get depressed again..Damn!I know just how to fix this..some real therapy..
Jumped into the shower and then called a provider i hadn't seen in a while.She came over in half an hour and it was ON!!!.....We went at it like the world was gonna end..At one point I had to stop because of her very loud moans and groans(I thought the neighbors were gonna call the cops..lol)she said she couldn't help it,she was really enjoying herself.We had a great 2 hour/2 cup(almost three)session.Ahhhhhhh,just what the doctor ordered.My ATF who???....lol
She left and shortly after my former ATF called,I didn't answer the phone.She left a message saying she hoped I felt better and would like me to call her but if not she wished me well.

Folks,during the time I started having these strong feelings,I did alot of reading about similar situations on this board.This really helped me to sort out my emotions.
Shots,Trooper2,nmatch,misstyler,what now,bigless,Mr.Fisher,the great Love Goddess,and all those I missed Thank You.Thank you for opening your hearts and minds on this board.You all helped me avoid a bad situation.Should we ever have the pleasure to meet..Drinks are on me!!

Peace
BIGL

btw,the gift that i brought for her will be given to my Mom,who really deserves it.

It's too bad things didn't end well for you and your former ATF but you're misplacing your anger.  

Even from the way you described things, you were the one full of expectations.  If she led you on, you didn't mention that.  It seems like she handled things in a rational and decent way.  Even to the point of calling you back later that night.  She didn't have to - many people say they'll get back to you and never do.

She may not have deserved your gift, but she doesn't seem to deserve your contempt either.

Sorry you couldn't make things work out.

But given the intensity of emotions in your post, it really sounds like you're in love, or close to it.  

I suspect that the two of you will be "back together"  probably before the end of the year.

Good luck on the next go round with the ATF.

Give us an update if you're so disposed.

to thy own self, be true."

And it sounds as if you are doing just that.

It is apparent that your former ATF got just as wound up over this as you did.  Normally when a ptovider is told that a client won't be seeing her again, she gives a cheery response and keeps it all light (even if she is feeling pain inside).  That's what the rule book says.  But rules are made to be broken, and anyone who's hobbied for a while will know that.

Here's hoping for better success with the new one.  I hope that their are lessons learned, if nothing else.

(Sorry if I didn't quite quote the Bard correctly but I have to get going to a date soon and I didn't have time to look it up in my Bartletts.  Did I come reasonably close?)

More than adequate in spirit if not an exact quote.

And it sure as hell beats out something like "...Cry havoc, and let slip the dogs of war..." where, if given sufficient additional length, it seems the origanal post was heading.

Best wishes to both parties involved.

involved.  Remember, this is a business for the ladies, even if part-time for your ATF.  My hunch is you will see each other again outside the hobby and maybe sparks will fly.  There are hobbyists who end up attached to a former provider.  Good luck.

lol nope, you hit it....except that "thy" should be "thine" :o )

likes the sybian

No I don't think i'll be seeing her again.
Dragonfly,she did lead me on to a certain extent(calls,text messages etc..)I would only call her when I wanted to see her,but would talk to her when she did call.Sorry i couldn't write everything.....I dislike typing.
Riding The Wave,up yours B***h,that's why I don't post much because of aholes like you.
Thanks to everybody else for the input.

My 2 cents: when time spent with a provider ceaese to be an escape & becomes an obsession, it's time to re-evaluate.  I'm in a similar place right now.

Good luck to both of you - I really hope it works out.