I saw an escort for the first time 24 years ago this month.  I’ve had the good fortune to form great relationships with 3 ladies over the years.  One ghosted me after 10 years, a second found religion and retired, the third, just last week informed me that she has met someone and retired.  This last one was hard.  We were friends.  We never crossed the line and we would get together for extended dates 3 or 4 times a year for the past 5 years.  I cared about her, but knew the extent of our relationship.  I knew it would end someday, somehow, but when it happened it was hard to deal with.  I’m not sure I will be able to develop this kind of relationship again and maybe it’s time for me to think about whether I want to continue in this lifestyle.