I’ve found being open and myself helps me most of the time by being able to create authentic connections with most of my experiences. However in the 12 years on and off, I’ve yet to have the experiences I’ve had this Summer… anyone else care to chime in? I left it pretty open ended for anyone willing to share.
Once for a potential SB.. It was in a middle of the pandemic.. August 2020.. It was really dark and lonely at that time and found myself in a weak moment.
Don't tell anyone.. If it gets out, it can and will hurt my tough guy image on the boards.. LOL..
Your secret is safe with me 🤫
It was a rush, but of course it didn’t last. And not for the obvious reasons. The heartache still haunts me years later. So how do I feel now? Maybe this will help answer:
Life is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing.
I fall in love with my ATF, for 1 hour, every time I see her. She drives me crazy. Everything about her is perfect! I don’t know her outside the studio, I really know nothing about her.
I know she is a excellent kisser, sensual and sexy. Always smells fresh, soft skin and eyes that look right into my soul. For 1 hour she is my fantasy, my vision of perfection.
best answer ever...I totally agree and since it is a mutual session i only hope that the lady portrays her affection as well as I and leaves it at the door to maybe reflect on during the review reading and again only if she goes back for more .....My favorites have always been my best reviewed and i shall say that i have many a times revisited for a dream but normal life goes on as usual.
So, yes, I bet it happens more often than we think; second marriage, by the way.
I've also had an affair with one gal, but now we are Platonic friends (Known her over 30 years.)
I see many gals whom I have known 20-30 years now, and must admit I have strong feelings for them above and beyond what I would for someone I haven't seen nearly as often.
There's an old saying about guys like me: we love not wisely, but too well.
Now that sounds like a fairytale ending and I’m hoping there’s still that sense of freedom to explore the world of taboo without having to hide fully our shadow side. I’ve had 2 clients this Summer that have broken through this emotional barrier I didn’t realize I had. I mean everyone has boundaries right? I suppose all walls to the heart are able to broken by asking the right questions.
My situations remind me of a life I do desire yet I choose a path which helps me be independent in so many ways. It’s just funny how the Universe plays jokes on you just to remind us how we aren’t immune to the sparks that fuel a flame. That’s all we with one another here, in a way, is test love and sometimes love bites back. 😂
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but I feel very blessed to have such a fine wife.
And yes, she does approve of me seeing other gals. We actually live 1500 miles apart which may be part of the reason why we work together so well, but we do get together several times each year, and when we do it's nice to reconnect, so to speak.
We also talk every day.
We should all get together, along with a certain rascal from ABQ.
I've always wanted to meet Bev. Mickey....? Yeah okay for a few hours, lol. You, I've already met and Fish, I'll be seeing in a few weeks.
I've got to get Fish back to NYC again. 
Steph XO
Sounds like it’s time to retire. Once ladies, both here and Twitter can’t separate between playtime and real life Nothing good can happens. The only thing that I can smell is—All aboard: the borderline personality crazy train has come to town.
The greatest cause of love is proximity. I mean we evolved in small tribes where the selection was not very extensive. That said we all probably have developed a sort of prototype image of the ideal mate -- the so called "love a first sight."
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So proximity to someone who sort of matches our prototype image ... yeah, can probably be infatuated within seconds.
as I’m already in love with my wife. I think being in love with more than one person when in a committed relationship isn’t a good idea. But I’ve developed feelings of friendship with a few providers, in particular with my long-time ATF.
Love and feeling in the air after they entered my ATM Pin # while we were holding hands. So romantic, I recollected.
....but I used to fall in love with strippers on a weekly basis. Thank goodness I outgrew that. I was amazed at how quickly I'd fall in lust, which is what I eventually realized it really was.
Very interesting.. As a connoisseur of Strip Clubs myself (just got back from S. Florida, which is a Strip club haven). I find myself almost impervious to any deep emotional connection with a stripper. Personally, for me it's the most superficial and transaction of them all. Flirting with SBs, on the other hand, can sometimes lead to entangling of emotions - especially if they are intelligent and can really hold conversation. Providers are somewhere in between strippers and SBs..
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Between the booking and the date she studies your TER posts. When you show up, she opens the door wearing this:
YES ! YESS !! YESS !!! Very nice... Excellent outfit.
I am just watching Cade Cavall's debut.. Kid got a good breaking ball.
I repeat with providers where the sex is exceptional! I’ve been seeing providers for five plus years, and they still don’t know the first thing about me! Some have volunteered quite a bit about their personal lives, and although I appreciate it I don’t reciprocate. I like some of my regulars, and I believe they think I am nice, and perhaps a good lover. I think these regulars appreciate our reciprocal friendships with no other strings! For me, definitely best that way.
I enjoy and we go our separate ways. Even with the ones I've seen repeatedly, I don't fall fall for them.
It happened once and did not end well. She was a local girl, young and gorgeous, sweet and fun. Sex with her was some of the best I have ever had. She had some personal problems with family and finances, so she started working as an escort. We met a few times through her booker, then she gave me her personal number, and she would even cancel multiple dates to spend time with me for hours at a time. I knew all her real information, and even went to her home. I thought the feelings were mutual until I discovered that she's a sociopath and has Borderline Personality Disorder. Who knows what else. The girl is not capable of having real feelings, just mimics other people. After I stopped seeing her she found a boyfriend who just divorced his wife, and stopped providing. He's a sugar daddy but doesn't know it, lol! I'm sure she never told him the truth about her past.
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After over a decade of being friends, he’s now considered family.
I have. It built up over several years. It's ongoing. It's complicated.
I am a love goddess, after all!
Your ad says you are "one in a million," There are 8 billion people in the world, so there are 8,000 of you running around. 
And 335 just in the USA alone.
You’re right. I should change it to incomparable, but it’s kind of a big word, these days. 😉
None lasted more than 6 months or so, but I treasure those ladies and the experiences we shared.
Been a few that I'd have loved to be with in real life. But let's get real. They wouldn't be with me and what's yheir personality when they aren't getting paid? It's acting!
Hate to break it to you, but without money, most women wouldn't be with us. I'm sure most women think the are motivated only by love, just that without money, love doesn't develop.
I beg to differ
That just shows how you feel about women as a whole.
Actually there is a science behind it (evolutionary biology) and it is called hypergamy.
I even confessed my feelings as we sat half drunk on the beach at a resort one evening, she looked at me all weird I explained myself “ oh God don’t worry I’m not getting all clingy and shit, I like you too much for that. I’ll admit I love ya but it’s not the little White House and 2.5 kids and a minivan kinda love. It’s better than that I’m happy just doing this fake couple stuff when we can. So yeah kinda, still love the gal even though we haven’t met in a few years (damn you geography) and I think the feeling was mutual for reasons I’ll keep to myself for discretion but not the typical “love” more just two friends with some awesome benefits lol
I seek sex with women for the feelings of emotional love that go with it. Purely physical sex I can handle by myself, with much less fuss and bother (and expense).
When I'm in a good session I'm in love. So far the love has not lasted more than a day after the session, though the memories retain their glow.
Providers who kill my loving feelings don't get repeats, no matter how gorgeous or vigorous or passionate or slutty they were.
So: Yes, I seek love and feelings for the hour or two of a session. Works for me.
I'll settle for falling in lust.
Never thought it would happen to me. After my fiance passed and I started to travel I fell for two clients
First one we still talk and see each other every other month. But we are not in a relationship we are in a weird place. lol
The second guy was a client for twelve yrs we started dating on year thirteen. It lasted a year and it still hurts.
He said we would stay friends after the break-up and for awhile we did. Beginning of covid he paid my rent and helped with other things even though he lives across the US despite us being broken up.
I will always have deep feelings for him but there will never be a chance of us getting back together
I like to think it was mutual. She worked for an agency but would visit my city monthly, and I always booked a multi- hour appointment with her, generally in the late afternoon, early evening. We of course had sex but also lots of pillow talk, cuddles, etc. We had a few "off the clock" dinners, exchanged gifts for birthdays and the holidays, etc.
She ultimately retired and we stayed in touch for a bit, but -- as it tends to happen with people who don't see each other anymore -- we lost touch. Could there have been something more if one of us was willing to move to the other's home city? Maybe. I've long since lost her number; I can only hope that she's doing well.
Over the years, there have been at least 3 regular providers whom I have known and developed feelings for. Two have been out of the provider role for many years and have adult children, we still maintain contact and on rare occasions when traveling may have dinner or drinks. They have become long time "friends" at this point in my life, we have fond memories of younger years and great times. Well worth the effort, and I value them as my friends.
I would describe it more as having affectionate feelings for her vs. falling in love. I have never told her about my feelings though, as to me the advantage of the client/provider relationship is the lack of complications and I want to keep it that way. She has said some very sweet things to me over the years which I would like to believe are evidence that she has some feelings for me, but I’m not that naive. Fortunately or unfortunately, she lives in another city and doesn’t tour so I can’t see her that often. Unfortunately (and not unrelated) I’ve had the best sex with her of anyone in my life. Sigh…..
I had already realized she was a wonderful lady and not happy after 9 years in the business.. so I was trying to build a friendship. An injury (doing a self defense class) put her out of business temporarily, then Covid hit, and she had no business.
Over the next year+ it went from client to casual acquaintance to friend to best friend to committed monogamous partner. Best decision I ever made. She’s a wonderful lady and the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen.