So I just had my first appt and I have to say, it was really not what I was expecting.

I picked a local provider who was well reviewed.  I also picked someone who would do massage+french session b/c I wasn't sure that I wanted FS.  The lady had mostly 7s with a few 6s and 8s for looks and good marks for performance.

I was obviously nervous, but I kinda though I would be very excited, it wasn't so much.

I really didn't find the provider all that attractive, which might have made all the difference in the world, although I wasn't expecting that to be the case going in.

I tried to make small talk, (and she did as well) but there wasn't much to say.

The massage was pretty good, I flipped over and received a CBJ.  The cover was my choice.

I don't know, it just wasn't what I was expecting.  

I haven't decided if I should try again with someone that I am more attracted to, or if this is  a sign that this isn't for me.  

Had you asked me ahead of time if there is a chance that I would end up wondering if "this isn't for me" I would have told you that you are crazy, but now I am not sure.

I don't know what else to say really... I don't have anywhere/anyone else to discuss this with so here I am.

I guess I would wonder if anyone else had a similar experience?  Anyways, thanks for reading.