My ex and I were together since high school almost fifty years ago. We divorced four years ago.

Not obsessed, but I do miss a petite Latina whom I had a fun time with. Have moved on and a new ATF has come along.

participated in the decision to divorce, whereas when your ATF retired and stopped seeing you, it was solely her decision.  Accordingly, you feel like you have unfinished business with her. Find a replacement, and these feelings will pass.

It could be that you had a strong connection or she moved you in such a way. Of course only you would know. But where there are genuine mind and body connections between two people, the absence of one will surely be felt.

But usually when a LTR ends, especially one as LT as yours, it's been bad for some time. Usually the relationship has been dead before it is actually over.

My ATF is still in the biz but she actually lived with me over the summer.  I met her while traveling some time back and she came up to stay with me.  Best of times, worst of times.  She had some things she was working through and i provided a soft place to land for awhile.  Unfortunately she did some things that really disrespected me and I had to ask her to leave.  I know it was the right decision but I still miss her.  I was pretty pissed off at first and should have given her some more time to get her act together before putting her out and I apologized for that, but she is still pissed off at me.  Unfortunate as I would still like to see her when I travel to her city.  Think about her every day........

... for something to go wrong, cracks become canyons, and to reach the point of no return

I know it is in my case.

Handle. I don't think any of us know him.

I think about my retired atfs all the time, and hope they're all doing well.

There was one lady who just moved to another part of the country that was my first provider.  She has a smile,  a glint in her eye and that little voice "yeah, yeah, yeah!" when she is about to cum that just cranked my chain.  

I hope to build a bond like that with each of my clients like that!

That when a provider retires, they stop advertising, stop taking new clients? I'm surprised to hear that they stop seeing regulars as well. I guess it makes sense for those that go back to the traditional world of monogamy.  Me, I just cannot imagine! lol.

After reading several of your posts, lotsa luck.

I'm sure she valued you as well. No need for comparisons really, you vs other johns/her versus other providers. We have such a short time to enjoy the moments that connections are made in. So when sparks fly, enjoy the show. Right? What you had with her sounds like it was beautiful. Even more beautiful that those kinds of connections can be had, as long as the chemistry facilitates such a bond. People are always coming and going but memories last forever and nostalgia provokes those good 'ol feelings. Cheers to the ladies and gentleman who care about genuinely connecting. Whats that saying? ... People rarely remember the things you tell them but always remember the way you made them feel?

sadly, some time you do remember both... how they made you feel .... AND what they said

I miss my ATF client, he moved to London for work three years ago we talk every now and then but it is hard being in different time zones. We saw each other twice a week-then he moved. I still miss him. My ex fiancé of 5 years doesn't even cross my mind-ever-except ...now..eww! Anyway someone will roll around a better and greater version of your ATF I promise!

Ex-bf either!  Dodged that bullet like a Ninja!
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There are a few ex-gf's I wonder about...  where there was still potential there.  In most cases, they had run their course.  I'd like to have a couple of do-overs with them.