My last post to say adue, (spelling?)

Well, that's it for me.  I'm quitting the hobby life.  It started as a one time fantasy and got way out of hand.  My own fault.  Spent at least 5 figures.  I didn't post every one just the last  months when things started to get surrealistic.  I turned my porn fantasies into a reality.  A curse and a blessing.  No where to go from here.  It's become un-fulfilling.  What left?  uugh...a real relationship?  Had a great time.  Met some really great girls, and some...well.....Had an amazing time and explored the outer limits.  Theirs and mine.  Was always respectful, and let them know what I wanted and offered them to leave with pay if it wasn't their bag.  None left.  Did some really wild things with them and....to them.  Still cant believe what they let me do.  Not wife or girlfriend things thats for sure.  Some let me into their private life.  I fell in love with one of them and met her mother and children and went away for a long weekend..(unpaid)  but I fucked that up wanting her to quit.  (what I dick I was!) (no pretty woman story here)  sorry sweetie.  Anyway,,you all have fun, stay safe and treat them with respect or let them know you aren't going to.