Posted By: DC.
I haven’t actually met her yet, but I know she’s my soul mate and therein lies part of my problem, trying to convince her of that. I can guarantee you that she’s going to be the best ever, and cure me of this hobby addiction. However, even though we haven’t met, we’ve been talking, and somehow I’ve offended her in some way.
You see, it all started with my current ATF, soon to be my ex-ATF. She’s been in the business for too long. She’s been in so long, that she’s almost become a GILF; and I’m not really turned on by Grannies, but I do understand that it can be a fetish. Be that as it may, I had asked her to start using a Female Condom, but she said that it was too much like BBFS, and got mad at me because she thought that I was trying to sneak BBFS on her. I didn't even want to discuss it.
I didn’t want BBFS, I just wanted to try something new, but she didn’t believe that and got madder and madder at me. She got so mad that she even welshed on a bet we had made regarding some shit on the TER board.
I got so stressed out about it, I decided to book with another Provider. For some reason, when I was researching, I kept gravitating to the heavier providers even though I usually like them thinner. In fact, my favorite body type is somewhat like the young Jennifer Jason Leigh. But I couldn’t resist and booked with a large provider, using a credit card, which I know wasn’t the safest move.
The resulting session was OK, but nothing like my ATF provides. I left feeling kind of disappointed with myself and still stressed out. I was about 30 minutes away when I got a call from the provider I had just seen. It seems that her laptop had blown it’s mother board and she needed some help. Since I always carry spare computer parts for all makes and models in my trunk, I turned around and went back to fix it for her. Took me all night.
Unfortunately, my ATF later caught a glance at my CC bill on the computer that I had left on and saw that I had seen someone else. Now she was mad again. “You couldn’t get BBFS off of me, so wen to see this HO, huh?” she said. “I don’t have any symptoms yet, but I bet you gave me chlamydia or something else you caught from her.” I tried to convince her otherwise, but to no avail. Next time I’m just using cash – envelope or not.
A few nights later, I show up at my ATF’s place and what do I find? Both her and the heavy provider sitting on the couch. WTF? My ATF tells me that she is sorry for being mad, and arranged a double for me as her way of saying Thank You for being the hobbyist that I am. Well, I wasn’t into the session that much, especially when my ATF laid Sushi out on the other provider’s naked body for me to eat. I felt like I was eating the parasite fish off a Beached Whale.
I left that nigh feeling very unsettled. So, what was I supposed to do? I used to be able to bring these types of issues to the Love Goddess on her board for advice, but she’s gone now. Even so, I would have to use an Alias, but since my ATF already knows my alias and I’m not allowed to create another one, it wouldn’t work. Besides, there’s this stalker asshole that would just post something negative. The pastor that I would normally go to (since he’s a pervert himself) was unavailable because he just got fired.
So I decided to drive a thousand miles to try to see my ex,ex-ATF for some comfort. I called her on the way, set up the date, but wouldn’t you know it – she NCNS’d me. I’m sitting there, in the hotel room, when I receive a group text from my ATF offering herself up, first come, first serve. WTF? I decide, fuck it, I’m dumping the ATF and am going to find another.
So I pull out my little laptop and use TER to find a replacement. Three providers into my search, and I find my soul mate. She looks a little like the Octomom, which I dig, and has all 9’s and 10’s for reviews. Jesus, just from the reviews and pics alone, I may propose to her. I immediately picked up the phone and called her. Spoke to her for a heavenly six minutes and just knew that she was the one for me.
I’ve called and spoken with her twenty times in the last two days. Somehow this has put her off and she has asked me to stop. I just don’t think she knows how I truly feel about her, and am convinced that if I could just talk to her one more time, she’d get it.
I thought about creating a second handle for this post, but I don’t know if that is the right thing to do. Besides, I WANT my ATF to know that I’m leaving her for good, and I WANT my soul mate to know just how I feel about her.
So, what should I do?
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