I also generally end things on a good note, though recently I have to say that I didn't.

Oh, well, it happens.

And often things havent been soo successful cause of that

"Experience enables you to recognize a mistake when you make it again." -Franklin P. Jones

I have no idea  who Franklin P. Jones was but being one of those who prefers to accurately attribute things, I looked this up and like a lot of quotes, found out it wasn't Twain!

Anyoo, the short answer to your question is "Of course!" We're shaved, articulate monkeys, doomed by both genetics and conditioning to follow such patterns.  As it frequently noted in recovery groups, "One definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, expecting different results."  I've come up with a corollary: doing the same thing over and over again, knowing it's going to be fucked up is just stupid!  

We, as humans, are always victims of our habits. If we have a character flaw or two, they will be reflected in pretty much all walks of lives. Its very difficult to be one person at one place and be a completely different person at another - for too long.

If we are jealous as individuals, then we will be jealous in civvie relationships. However, with this hobby, our true nature may not even come to surface since so much is superficial and contact is limited to a few hours at most.  If you try to have a LTR (long term relationship) with a provider, then I am sure those character flaws will come to surface.

The last man I loved in civvie life was a biker 5 ft 11 250 lbs. covered in tattooes chest, legs , full sleeves. grey goatee. I met him when I was 24. I hadnt actually liked any one as much since but now recently met some one, whom, strangley looks exactly the same, but is 7 years older he is 50. He has the goatee with grey in it. the full sleeves and ink every where on on legs too. so the second guy I like is same look. They are both nice people in real life and caring despite thier maybe intimading appearance.Both are neurotic abpout fitness and health and lnow alot about body building.Both took martial arts/.  I have no desire to pursue a intimate relationship with any one at this time though, I am focused on working hard n romance isnt on my list in free time, after appts I feel like I dont need it. I do take a week off here n there though n just have civvie sex and not do appt. for week or maybe longer, . I do feel like I d like to save money up though  and have a baby and have the inked up guy be sperm donor. I want to stay single though n still do this for work. alot people disagree n think it be bad but then I d have alot money and extra time to tend to the child. I still want to live alone though. jillian michaels the personal trainer just adopted a baby, shes single, I dont know but yes I have a pattern. I like alpha males big tattooes.Maybe a bit thuggish looking, But in real life they have to be smart . I like that look though it seems to be   a pattern.

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