A little background on this.  Recently I visited a country in central America and reached out to a local provider.  We had two encounters on back to back nights.  The first night we met and had some drinks and chated for a couple hours.  She informed me of her background.  She grew up in Columbia and moved to this foreign country in central american 2 yrs ago.  She has been in the trade for 7 yrs.  She works every night of the week and charges 130 - 150 per session.  The money she makes she sends back to Columbia to support her parents and siblings.  Her family back home thinks she works in a restaurant.  She had breast enlargements done and tummy tuck.  She is a beautiful girl after the surgery.  I found her background very sad, but was attracted by the way she overcame her struggles.  After the first night I really looked forward to seeing her the second night.  I did see her the second night, but things didn't end well.  The attraction I have for this girl is of course gone, mainly because I will never see her again.    

After going to some bars in this country I came to realize a lot of girls in this country have the same story as above.  "Support family back home and have done work to their bodies to help advance their careers".  

What really bothers me is this.  Why was I attracted to a provider?  Why did I have that "feeling" of wanting to see her again the second night?  She had fake breasts and had a stomach reduction.  She also looked at me as a bank account.  If I wasn't buying her drinks or anything we wouldn't have even been talking.

My wife is better looking than her and everything is natural.  I just don't understand why I got this feeling of wanting to see the provider again when its been years since I have had that strong waiting for her to arrive moment with my wife.  

I'm attracted to allllll sorts of ladies. From different walks of life, backgrounds, color, age, whatever. Some are 'natural' and some have had enhancements and/or reductions. Some have HS educations, or less, and some have college degrees. Some are married, and some have kids.

As far as looking at you like you're a bank account. Hello!

And I've seen some providers over and over again, and will continue to do so. Why? Because they're good to me. They show me attention, and should be given awards for their acting skills.

Just fucking with ya ladies!

Don't over analyze it. There's nothing wrong with being attracted to someone other than your wife. Afterall, isn't that why you hobby?

Lula da Silva is the President of what South American country???

The OP is obviously feeling guilty about having strayed from his wife for a (gasp) a prositute of all people. lol He doesn't seem to be able to reconcile his feelings on the subject.

Most guy here, (not you and me) are married and have already come to terms about their "cheating", however they rationalize it is their business not mine, the fact remains they justify it in their own minds. The OP apparently doesn't "normally" do this type of thing, so he is either trying to justify or aussage his guilt, or both

The OP's moralist bullshit aside. It's pretty common to find Colombiannas providing all through Central America, the Carribean and most countries in the northern part of South America.

If the OP met a Colombianna working in a bar, charging $130-$150 he must have either been in the Beatle Bar in Jaco, or one of a couple of bars in Panama City, or else she was lying about her rate. Even the Del Rey doesn't have chicas charging anything over a hundred bucks an hour, not even to stupid gringos. Anywhere else in Latin America she would be lucky to get $150 for the entire night, much less per session.

I think that the OP would be better served to post his "moral struggle" on the Erotic Highway. I bet you the LG knows how to deal with the likes of him. rofl

The mods on this board seem to lack the guts to do so. roflmfao

is that it helps you learn things about yourself.

For example, the so-called Rooster Effect and its impact on seeing multiple providers in the same day!



I don't think the OP really wants to learn about himself because it would create cognitive dissonance.

I just can't see as many of them as I used to. lol

I agree with you about the OP, guilt sucks, doesn't it? I am glad I have nothing to feel guilty about, I can fuck as many women as I want without a moments angst.

Since your wife is at least capable of sex and pretty danged hot, let me recommend the book "Kosher Adultery: Seduce and Sin with your Spouse" by Rabbi Schmuley. Even if you are not Jewish, hell, even if you are a member of the Taliban, the information in this book will give you the solution to the problem you expressed as "...its been years since I have had that strong waiting for her to arrive moment with my wife."

That's my first thought.

As for the second ...

"What really bothers me is this.  Why was I attracted to a provider?  Why did I have that "feeling" of wanting to see her again the second night?"

This ain't rocket science.

If providers were unattractive, they wouldn't get paid. Men are typically superficial. For example, in studies of male reaction to blond hair in females, the reaction of males was not at all blunted by the knowledge that the hair color came from a bottle. For this reason, many men are positively affected by the results of cosmetic procedures on females, even when they are aware of their artificiality.

This is a case of men fixating on the cover as a substitute for the book.

Males evolved over many milennia to prefer women with certain physical attributes, NOT because these attributes in and of themselves are valuable, but because they represent underlying genetic or health factors that contribute positively to the survival and wellbeing of offspring. Even when the physical manifestations present are artificial and do not represent the underlying positive genetic or health attributes, men respond to them. That's why lipstick is a multi-zillion dollar industry.

Likewise, our human evolution never prepared us for false representations of reality. This is one reason why visual media is so powerful. You may intellectually know the images to be false; but they affect you and become a part of your experience and memories just as though they are real.

In essence, men did not evolve with the capacity to distinguish between a convincing GFE and the real thing with their hormonal responses; so your body released bonding hormones with the provider just as it would have with a woman who loves you. Thus you wanted to see her again.

This is nature's way of making you stick around to help provide for offspring. Again, our developing of ubiquitous birth control technologies is very recent in our evolution; and we have not adapted yet to distinguish our reactions between a woman with whom no procreation is possible as opposed to a woman who would bear our young.

In dealing with all of these sorts of things, it is important to establish primary control over your emotional reactions so that your best interests are put first. Look in terms of your best interests, and realize that it is never wise to have an emotional (and commensurate financial) investment in someone who does not (or even cannot) reciprocate at a similar level.

BTW, the techniques in Kosher Adultery are effective for the same reason that a provider with a tummy-tuck and lipstick is effective; it takes advantage of the fact we have not yet evolved to be able to differentiate fully between a book and its cover.

My morality is on the fritz.  Oh wait, I think they removed it after the alien probing.

you will also find thousands of similar threads there

as for your post, frankly I am having a hard time unscrambling wtf you are worrying about

good luck!

That and jealousy.

I mean, as far as guilt, you know, or feel what you're about to do is wrong. So why do it if you know you'll feel bad about it after?

I'm not talking sociopathic behaviour in that a person wouldn't feel anything about killing someone for example. Just, everyone here is either paying, or getting paid, to get laid.

Yeah, there might be some people that would get hurt. Family and what not. But not you and I GGSB. We have no one to answer to, so, WTF?

Now jealosy is an even LESS emotion to be concerned with, in my opinion.

I look at it this way. There are what, 6 billion+ people on this planet? Roughly more than half are women. Take into account where you live, or where you travel to, what your tastes are as far as age, race, any and all 'menu' options that pertain to what you would like a woman to have if you want to be with her.

So, after all these choices, and the one you want to be with forsakes you for another guy, you're gonna throw a fit and deny yourself because of her and HER choices? Fuck that shit!

Dude could have a bigger dick than me, make more money than me, be more handsome than me(highly doubtful, BTW!), or whatever parameters any lady might make her sway his way.

But the fact of the matter is, there's THOUSANDS of ladies that could easily take her place if she doesn't want MY company!

Sorry. Just got on a roll...!

... and what my combined schedule and budget allow are two different things!  LOL