After going thru my recent reviews, albiet without the help of the VIP status,  I am unhappy with what I percieve to be very unpleasant reviews on my behalf, I apologize for this complicated and radical shift in my atmosphere,  it isn't an easy explanation but it is a very human one, or I would hope so anyway, after being away for a while, I returned to town and was pleasantly suprized that my daughter allowed me to stay with her at her home, not really getting it together to even get a decent web page up and/or, my current hyperlink thingy up to date and current?  (I still havent yet, sorry, I'm no web genius, and I've got other things on my mind like my girlfriends need for a hearttransplant, or spending time with my daughter!)  Anyway, as I was saying, I was introduced to a really nice gay guy who was also in need of help so we agreed to help each other, him and his very loveable *AttackDog!!!    (to know Clover is to love her) but I finnally had to put a stop to her antics of aimlessly attacking everyone she didnt know, yes the dog had little or no manners at all, and then my dear friend, going thru his weird break-up?  another strange and unusual situation,phenomina, one I've never really seen or been put thru before?  Full of many interesting observations and interspections...
anyhow this person taught me alot of things, and I took the time to smell the flowers along the way,(what little could possibly grow in such terrain) and I grew in some ways and I wilted in others, I could have left these individual's behind me, but chose not to and if by chance you suffered because of my lack of common sense?  I apologize sincerely, however we all go thru stages in life, I know I do anyway, and I learn from them all, how very boring if everybody stayed on the same plane?  how very unfullfilling and unrealistic.  I still have an entire storage compound of wonderful antiques and whatnots, but theyre not going anywhere anytime soon either, unless I decide to do something with them?  Keep them?  Sell them? Give them away? Irreguardless, it is my journey and if I invite you in and at times the road is more than a little less than fammillar in regards to your comfort zone's? please forgive, but realize that some things are more important than others, and since I didnt read the grading on the Xes part? I can only imagine,(pray tell that it was a happy experience and that I wasnt overly overwhelmed by it all at the time!) well, we all have our days/timeframes dont we? and so it is that I leave it at that, yes, I can be a little strange, (my mother was a hippie?) and if that didnt work, then I'm just me, and to know me is to love me or then again, maybe not, but I do know this, any journey in life if not done for human reasons, with understanding and love, would be a very lonely one, at some point your heart tells itself what to do,keeping up with the Jones's not keeping up with the Jones's? does all that really matter?, as a matter of fact, my current place is quite nice, yep, it is decent enough, but really, so what about the place, does it impress you?  is it supposed to impress you? and if so? then why? I didnt set out to write a book so I'll leave off here, anyway, just a few thoughts on my 2 recent reviews...ouch!!! (Thank god I rarely trip on those things, god I'd be an outright nut by now as if I werent already!) and once again, sorry about that!  Love (Maybe I shouldn't put my name here? or should I? after all it's only a perspective thing and I'd rather not at this time as I may regret it at a later date, I would wouldnt I? Shame, isnt it,  that we all worry so about our fragile egos? or you may know me after all, after all it's all there/here, but only if you look for it) xxxooo & back to the old drawing board,& isn't it nice that some things never change, and the more things change the more they....say the same?  hopefully not...

Never apologize for showing feeling,When you do so, You apologize for the truth,   Bengamin Disraeli

Hi honey, Hope all is going well with you. We all go through rough times in our life and hope that everyone on here can understand that at times. Haven't talked to you this week so don't know if your plans have worked out. I'll always be here if you need a friend and i hope that you remember that. Life always has a way of working itself out and remember what i said before. Without the bad times, we wouldn't know what the good times were. You can always reach me at my number or if you need an email address. Use this one. [email protected]. I'll talk to you soon. Your friend from the orange county.

Skybaby, just a suggestion, but maybe one or two details to reference whatever it is that you're referring to.

Skybaby, I am so sorry you’re sad about your recent reviews. You are an awesome woman. We have only met once and it was very sweet. Yes, the dog nipped at me and yes the place was messy. Frankly, I did not care as you were beautiful, acted very sexy, and moreover opened up your spirit so that I could enjoy all of you.  I only wish your were going to be next to me tonight.

For those of you who truly do not know who skybaby is, rest assured that she is a long time member of the community. It seems that even though she is very open about her life when meeting people, some have not taken her life challenges into consideration when offering a review. Let me say this, she is lovely, inside and out, and is trying to rebuild, all the while sharing everything she has with her friends. Skybaby  you’re a beautiful soul, and I hope to see you soon.

It appears as though very few, if any of us are getting it. Therefore, I would surmise that it was not meant for a majority, or any of us and probably should not have been posted on a public board. If she wanted to let an individual know how she felt, she should have sent them a PM. Just my 2 cents. I would have sent this to someone in a PM, but when people use an alias......You know the story.

ok, this is my tough love message.  Darlin, you've got so much going for you!  many many people who honestly care about you!  you've got a rich, imaginative, healthy life outside of all this, outside of us and our dramas,.... you try and take care of everybody, I worry you forget about yourself!  maybe I should switch to all caps, cause I know you're hearing me, not necessarily feeling me.  What is best for you?  It's a good question and one that can't be answered by anybody but you, so there, I'll back off the tough love for a minute.  

Somebody, hold this woman, this strong beautiful woman and tell her everything's going to be ok.  Doing it quick, do it now!

smooches, fahrkle

Hi babe, things weren't going well for me that week but now things are looking up and I admit that I was in a bit of a deppressed mode, the the last week or two, for whatever reason, but so much has happened since then, the Vivid people even called,(cool huh!) for certain I wont be going into film or anything, but it was nice of them to invite me to L.A. and also to Los Vegas for the Adult Convention they were having up there, although I didnt go, perhaps I will catch up with Serenity and GinaLynn, and Brianna Banks another time, (cool huh, they called me because of some crazy thing that I did not to long ago, nothing overy crazy,mind you, just a little out of the ordinary thats all!) Well now, since the Bonaventure is out and I can rest assured my Father wont be opening any new magizines with me in them, (that's the reason I wouldn't dare go into film, he did that once a while back and I was very embarrassed when that happened to happen) Now I am here with a few very good friends and we are so damn supportive of one another, its beautiful, (so is the sex!)  I care and am cared for, and thats the way I like it, Loving & Great Sex, and what more could I ask for? It feels good and so what if I'm not perfect, and so what if a lot of these board people are just as weird as me(in my opinion anyway, as they seem to lack any real understanding in regards to where I am coming from (for the most part anyway), I guess some things never change do they?  Whatever trips their trigger, I hope to see you soon I miss you Something Fierce!!!

Miss you too and I will come down next weekend. Sorry I didn't call back today.