Firstly I want to apologize for  becoming involved in the mess on the board in the manner that I was. This was a true learning and maturing experience.  Secondly, I want to thank those of you that had kind words of solace and understanding for the predicament I found myself in. You’ll understand why I didn’t respond to your inquiries.  Mostly I want to thank my true love, who stepped in and stopped things from swirling wildly about me and for the second time in my life, took over parenting when I needed to concentrate on getting things in order.

I am Heardit2, as most of you probably know, figured out or have been told by third parties.  I have long suffered from an anxiety disorder, up until about two months ago self medicated by the ganga, most recently I’ve attacked it head on with the help of some great professionals who also helped me through this chapter that played out very inelegantly on this board.

When I first received the call from Lara, saying that she’d almost been arrested, I told her this story sounded illogical but I kept her secret as she implored me to.  She said if it got out that she’d said anything she’d most certainly be arrested.  This made no sense, but I wasn’t about to just turn and call up girls and tell them what she’d just called to tell me.

A week later my naughty escort website acted up as though there had been an intrusion while the webmaster was out of town.  The website came back up with a very different look, alarming to me if indeed the webmaster was out of town.  I believe the webmaster that the bad guys didn’t intrude on his site. I called another mature provider that utilized the same (naughty escort) service and during that call gave her a nebulous warning that the bad guys were POSSIBLY using a much different tac than I’d ever heard of before.  

It was during this call that I was told almost the exact same story that Lara had told me but from a different provider third party information, originating from yet ANOTHER provider.  This provider I’d called had also gotten a call, but this provider I’d called surmised the provider was trying to glean information and you all know the rest of that story.... that these providers were supposedly working with the bad guys in order to hurt US.  The provider urged me that in order to protect each other it was best that we DO tell each other not hide these stories and I did divulge that Lara was the one that called.

It was then that the ugly began, the name calling. I thought how could Lara? and the accusations that Lara, was indeed trying to take me down, as had the girl that had called this provider.  I took this all at face value, I didn’t think I had any reason NOT to believe these providers that I had called friends.

I, of course was LIVID.  Lara, I now thought had tried to hurt me.  I called supergirl immediately upset to the point of tears and despondent that another girl would go this far.  Supergirl was glib and said she’d heard of this type of ploy by the bad guys before. “ Just play their game, it’s fun!” she says and then hurries me off the phone.

In the ensuing days I see the story has spread, and I add to it myself in my state of anger and frustration.  Not understanding why in the world another provider would try to hurt ME of all people.

When I consulted an attorney I received some devastating news, that possibly some of my actions could have been interpreted as felonies. (Where he read this out of the statute, I am unable to find and I have NO idea why he did this other than maybe to allow me some time to de-stress from the obviously disconcerted state I was in.  He didn't charge for his advice.) This is when my guy came down~decided we needed to STAY and face the music, and took me by the hand, took care of evaluating all the information that others had about me and decided to put out all the fires. I TRULY LOVE him.

There is, no longer information in ANYONE’S hands that could be used against me to hurt me.  My family wasn’t  protected prior, now they are.  I’ve cleaned up all of my “dirty little secrets” with the help of my guy.  Coming clean was a big relief and I’ve worked out a way to make everything above board so that nothing anyone can say to anyone else can be hurtful.  Think otherwise?  I invite you to GO FOR IT... (I’m certain this post will rankle some nerves.)

I too have always prided myself on being a caring human being that was an above board ethical person with morals.  I believe I was a pawn for a minute.  No Longer!

I now am working in a manner in which most of you are within my college degree! (Easy with a clean pee test!) Paying taxes and while not punching a clock working hard and HAPPY. That was my main concern at the time that I disappeared from the scene.  My family is and has always been my number one priority.

As far as Law Enforcement, I’ve never committed a crime that I know of.  I date, I bring a gift,  I’ve accepted a gift when it’s offered.  Advertising on Eros-guide has always been an upscale type of dating service for me.  Take that for what you will.  It the reason I dated very rarely. I'll probably do it again.

My apology to Lara would come a day late and a dollar short. Her reviews show she’s a good and safe provider.

As far as my paranoia or mental health issues, I’ve taken more professional help in the past six months than most people will subject themselves to in a lifetime.  I suffer from generalized anxiety due to post traumatic stress disorder~I’m not bipolar as some would have you believe (and as I once was inappropriately labeled)~ I was in the front seat of the school bus during a double fatal crash when I was 8~~two children in a car that went under the bus were decapitated.  A classmate and his sister were killed when they had their throats slashed by their mother when I was 10.  These things tend to stick with you if you’re not counseled, and back when I was a kid, they didn’t offer counseling after those types of incidents.  It was all a hush-hush deal.  I’ve done a LOT of purging this last several months.

I am paranoid to a point and I also have a very good gut instinct.  The grey area in the middle where they meet is sometimes VERY murky.  A true paranoid isn’t able to identify themself as such.

I won’t be discussing these incidents any further publicly nor privately, I won’t be discussing anyone with anyone else... No referrals or references.  I’ve learned several things.  Don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say it.  If someone is talking shit about other people to you, they’re probably talking shit about you to other people.  Substance abuse come in many forms, alcohol, marijuana... even sex can cover up a need/loss/fear/hurt you feel deep inside.  Pointing a finger at someone means three are pointing back at you.

One last thing... I may NEVER know the TRUE deal here.. I only know what happened on MY end of the story.  Please read the Maybes, the Possibly and the words carefully even in my prior retraction post as Heardit2.  Don’t read between any lines.  I’m not a VIP here so mailing me at TER won’t get you a response, and asking me questions about individuals won’t get you a response, either.

Thanks for your time.  Elise   [email protected]

Although I mainly watched the "Dogpile on Lara incident" from the sidelines, and I admittedly may have the wrong take on the issue (I thought she was innocent from the start), this thread not only sheds more light on that issue, but shows a person coming to terms with herself and her values in front of her peers...much like Roger Waters spoke of at the end of Pink Floyd's "The Wall".  Some may think it self-indulgent or new-agey...I personally think it is mature, vulnerable, and beautiful.

Elise, your presence is missed here, and your candor and humility in this thread are a breath of fresh air in a world motivated by fear.  To borrow a cliche, "...and the truth shall set you free".  May it do so in ways that make your life better no matter what paths you choose.

Although Elise's "Apology" DID come (to quote her) "a day late & a dollar short" it is STILL APPRECIATED!

Perhaps (initially) I dealt with what happened to ME the way that I DID out of FEAR, as well.  When something SCARY like that happens, sometimes, you don't know WHAT to do! It is SUCH a FRUSTRATING situation to be in (ie: to be innocent of the crimes you are being accused of)  I just hope that Elise's Retraction & Apology will FINALLY CLEAR THE AIR.  (and, in turn, my name)

Sincerely ~ Lara  

"One last thing... I may NEVER know the TRUE deal here.. I only know what happened on MY end of the story.  Please read the Maybes'

AND THIS IS THE PROBLEM. I DON'T EVER DO MAYBES. I DON'T POST ABOUT FEELINGS OR MY INTUITION.

Elise the thing that you have never been able to grasp is what information is meaningful and what isn't. Info that is meaningful is info that has been backed up by unrelated alternate resources and verifiable proof. How many times did I have to tell you not to sweat the shit that you can't prove? Just leave it alone. You also don't seem to get that there are alot of people out there who have requested that they not be brought into the foray for very good reasons. People who do have first hand info and info that is backed up by other unrelated sources. When you called me AGAIN upset I hurried you off the phone for several reasons. One being that I had company, two being that Yes this sort of thing has not only been done before but is in some degree being done all the time. It is far from a new tactic and know it or not there are always those out there that are providing information to LE to save their own ass.

I never said that messing with them was fun I said to keep your mouth shut and to use the opportunity for counter intelligence. In other words don't do exactly what you did.

Supergirl does not post about "feelings" or "suspicions"
Supergirl only posts what she KNOWS and what has been verified by several resources. Supergirl does this because she HATES paranoia and Believes strongly that the legislation of peoples bodies is a civil rights violation of the most serious kind.


BTW Lara's "guy" is trying to book with other providers and he has a new job description for each of them. I couldn't screen him at all. Not one thing he said in any of his attempts to book were at all verifiable.
With or without lara the story continues and has been since day one. This is alot bigger than one provider and this tactic will continue. You are either league or legion. Pick a side or sit back and spectate. Anything else is just bullshit.

Supergirl reminds Pecker of Papi. Pecker thinks that Supergirl is a no nonsense chick... Pecker says, "you go Supergirl!"


Pecker

My thoughts are with you Elise, please take care. Do what is best for your safty always!  Follow your gut and be safe, every thing else will fall into place honey.  Bexy

LMAO at dick.......