We all desire this one thing: 1) we want to know that someone loves you above anyone else in the whole world and you're special, and 2) and this would just be nice but, that you would also feel the same way

Sometimes it's not so much wanting them, as for example I don't REALLY want to ever marry, so the above doesn't mean I want to marry, it just means you want to experience that possibility.

Does that make sense?

And, so what you may be feeling is that you don't have that and you just want to know if you ever will, or maybe you are realizing that you really do want and need it-that sense of permanence and stability.

Re:Am I the only one....

Personally, I more or less retired from the hobby several months ago. I just no longer had the adrenalin rush that I once had when shopping for a provider or even meeting the providers. I was constantly looking for a provider to make me feel like I did after my first FS experience. I finally did find one, but that experience was short lived. I found very few diamonds in the rough. I still have a lady near me that has a small and constantly changing stable if I should get the urge, but I doubt if that will happen anytime soon. There is noting wrong with you. You are simply human and have the ability to get bored.