I am battling to get out of this hobby and addiction the last 3 months. I have seen only 4 providers in the last 3 months and in each case I did not do penetration. Mostly just some kissing, cuddling and dry humping to finish. The last encounter was over 3 weeks back.

Hello ItsHotOutHere,

I'm proud of you,  and you should be proud of yourself.  Stay strong, my friend!

I wish you the best in re-finding the person that is still inside you.

So this hobby is great but if it had such a bad effect on you.
Then it's time you close out your TER account and continue on your path of getting better.
You are doing the right thing of getting help for yourself.
Thanks for sharing and I wish you all the best in the future man.

Thank you for the encouragement. I sometimes have called my favorites due to my addictive compulsion and within an hour or two will call/text them back to cancel the appointment due to the inner conflict I have. Two of them have already cut me off due to scheduling and cancelling. In once case last month, I went to the session and within 5 minutes I said I cannot do this, paid her and walked out. Such conflicts are really throwing me off balance. I luckily have a paid sabbatical from my workplace and I have taken it 2 weeks back to ensure that I can fully focus on my recovery.

and can afford $25,000 a year for hookers trust me, your happier. Of course instead you will get married and have kids and go thru a life wrenching divorce/custody battle, lose half your shit and end up back here.  

I would suggest you get professional help too. Doing this alone is going to be hard. You are off to a good start but having some backup might get you through some bad times. Good luck

As of now, I am working with a church pastor and just started attending a local SAA chapter. The SAA is a good option if you believe in God and put your hopelessness on him. I am actually finding the 1:1 conversation with the pastor more fruitful at this time as he is someone who had a porn addiction when he was younger and is able to understand how the brain works on addicts.  

Hey BallJointNut,

Hey ItsHot.......sorry for the anguish and anxiety you are obviously experiencing right. BUT, beating yourself up will not help you move beyond this point. I'm guessing I'm quit a bit older than you, but share, both past and current, an addictive personality,  including here. A lot of people here share that.trust me. It is what it is. What's done is done. Remember, just as "This too shall pass" is very relevant here, so too are the experiences that have brought you to this point, made you who you are and have moved you to a more spiritual place of self awareness and helping others. Not such a bad place to be I'd say. It'll get better....much better........promise.

Thank you all for the kind words and encouragement. I had no idea what sort of responses I will get when I posted about my addiction. I did expect more balljointnuts to chip in with their "see I am cool" comments, but with that exception the majority of you have been extremely supportive and I thank you all for it.

In my humble (but educated) opinion, sex addiction is a crock.  

So if this is such a tough time for you ... why are you still on here?  Just close your account and be done with it.  

Exactly, close this account if you really want out. You don't hang out with a crack dealer if you want to quit crack

The reason I am still here is because I am addict and acting out due to compulsive behavior. As a drunkard who wants to stop drinking paces back and forth in front of the doors of a bar. I am pacing back and forth in front of my temptation of indulging one more time. It is like telling a smoker, just don't buy cigarettes and a alcoholic to avoid bars. If he or she could do that so easily than why do we have a multi-billion industry of rehab program? Think!!!

If you are looking for support go to a doctor or support group.
Why keep reading the post here and making these comments?
You need help today and don't wait anymore!
Just stop using TER and that is your first real step in helping yourself get over these issues.
I wouldn't even be surprised if your friend's story was really about yourself either.
So stop and close out your account today.

If you Google it, there are even many articles on this. I believe it's still controversial, but from anything I've read over time, it has been noted to affect the way the brain reacts in certain centers during porn stimulation as other drugs affect those areas through brain scans.

And hype to get the point across. Appeal to emotion, (fear,)/which can chase away your logic.

And now he's taken this post word for word to the General Board looking for support.  What a pathetic, sissy-assed, attention whore.

You should ask TER to delete it.

But you have had the experiences none of us want to die without.  You can now put that behind you.  I would not think any less if you seek professional help...  I think you should.  I don't know how you'll fare in the dating scene.  You may have a "dry spell"...  but that's what it may take to form a long term relationship.  
I am in a sexless marriage...  if I had it to do over, I'd be slower to move to the marriage stage & not accept a low sex level...  

Well at least you know what you want now? Words are one thing but the cliche goes that action is a million times better. I've only been addicted to one thing in my life up to now and she was a former lover but the solution to that was to just stop seeing her and just keep the mind on something else for a few months. It worked. The hobby to me i value the companion side to it and penetration is just a bonus (not very good at that anyways). I enjoy talking to the girl more as there are no strings attached and you can be more free and so far i have met wonderful people. I guess you can get addicted to anything, its subjective, relative. I certainly dont think 500 a week is addict level when you have russian billionaires filling up their yachts with girls and having orgies. You might just be burnt out. Anyways all the best.

some posts DESERVE to be ridiculed, this OP is most definitely one of them.

This guy is just trading in one addiction for another. Remember the old saying "I used to be strung out on drugs, now I am strung out on the Lord"? Same old tired shit, different day. He is going to trade in his "sex addiction" for a religious one. I'll take being a sex addict any day over "finding religion" It simply proves he thinks he is incapable of taking control over his own life and is turning to the nearest charlatan who claims he can run his life for him better than he has been doing himself. I guess I just don't have a lot of sympathy for weak minded people.

Hello Ga-Ga (BallJointNut?)

I have been on these boards for eleven years under the same handle and trust me, I have zero problems getting dates. I probably have more hooker friends on these boards than you have even seen in your entire life.

you pay them to fuck you whether they are attracted to you or not. I bet your mother is quit proud. Your daughters are learning how you value women and your sons are learning it OK to pay for pussy. Why have a real relationship? You try to make yourself out as so much better than me, but in the end we both pay hookers for sex.

Ga-Ga?  So like an infant then, and not a teenager?

I can imagine breaking any type of addiction is difficult, and joining a group shows how serious you area.

That those who insist on bragging on their 'service' typically didn't serve. Just an observation to the guy with all of 3 reviews calling out the guy with none.

Actually, that's been my experience too.  I wasn't "bragging on my service", sir, I was defending it on behalf of friends who never made it home, from those who would insult it.  Thank you for YOUR service, sir.

just to be clear I have 16 reviews.

Now they know that you only see a few select hookers.

And still calling people names like a Big man does.

You go you beautiful, sexy, hot gentleman, that id love to do oops, I mean meet soon. I agree 100%  and I adore your manners and shilvery. Balljoint your just redneck rude!. You could take a lesson from a real gentleman.....

I wish for you all the best. Addiction is no laughing matter. Seems to me you know what you really want. I hope you find it. Best of luck.

Actually, I'm under no illusions that I could ever "force you into my way of thinking", BJN.  I learned a long time ago that you can't use logic, reason, or even courtesy to talk someone out of a position that they didn't employ either to arrive at in the first place.  You may very well "pay hookers to fuck you", but others among us pay a lady FOR HER TIME, and what happens afterwards between consenting adults is based on MUTUAL attraction, courtesy, physicality, passionate connection, and an unselfish pleasuring of the other person.  Do I seriously have to explain this to you?