The regular day and time roll around and it hits me that I won't be making the weekly trek across town to see my ATF, first time in over a year.  The first week is hard, the second week harder and I figure it has to get easier sometime.  I mean, c'mon, we weren't married or anything.

I have this blah feeling, ennui, I guess.  I seem to have lost interest in the hobby, hell, in everything.  I look at the pictures, read the reviews, notice the beautiful women, but nothing lights a fire.  

I look at Paige's pictures at TLC and think, "Damn, there is one hella sexy woman!  She could bring me out of this."  But I don't pull the trigger.  I read Mya's reviews and think, "Okay, she sounds like a really fun gal, this is who I should play with."  Nothing.  No phone call, no email, nothing.

What's the cure?  Time?  Let myself adjust to things, then dive back in?  Or just go for it?  Call someone and get this crap out of my head?  Or just walk away, find a nice civilian girl?

Blah

This is incineration material!

I think you just burned an image into my monitor....

Hmmm, do I sit on Santa's lap or does Santa sit on my lap???

Life is too short to feel blah all the time.  Snap out of it, give us a call, schedule an appointment with Paige, and get back in the game!!

but if guys leave a message I always get back to them and i'm sure same goes for all ladies.  I am back in town by the 27th and hate to pass up any dates, but why dont you Take a look and if your interested then call me..  480-600-4131

.....while I may still be confused as to which of us is gets to play Santa........all I know is that I have this sudden urge to slide down Mya's chimney.....LOL......

You (the "john") will always view the equation as a singular dynamic meanwhile the gal will always view you as a small part of a bigger picture. So unlike a "real" relationship the dynamic will always be skewed. Remember not only does she have multiple regulars and multiple (ATF's) of her own but she may have a SO totally outside the business as well as kid(s) family etc.

Accordingly the dynamic works to make you "less" important while she becomes "more" important over time. Philisophically all you can do is realize that almost all things in life have a beginning and an end...so just enjoy the ride while it lasts.

Once it's over as a general rule its over. The problem is you cant just majically create that chemistry with someone else.

I wasnt joking above when I suggested a "travel adventure"...not only is it exciting in part due to its uniqueness....but the language barriers actually can help to foster a more basic chemistry since communication is a bit tougher.

Obviously individual circumstances may or may not permit such a journey....but trust me if you can you should....

Travel is exactly what you should do if you can.
I would recommend Thailand or the Phillipines (if you go thai hit akane fasson massage for some truly twisty (at least to this midwest boy) good times.
Or on this continent brazil the DR southern Mexico are all good. Even Canada is ok and they have good beer up there too.
For a day trip go to Nogie when ever i get pissed at the games here in town i go do an overnight in Nogie and see how many girls i can see.
nothing like multipops with chicks who speak english so poorly they cant even bitch at you for taking too long to finish.
usually on a trip to nogie ill drop about 300- 400 and have a hard time walking back the next day, so its even comparable to the hourly of some of the providers here in town.