Re:TY- to all who have contirbuted

Take the money you owed me and donate it...not to your own pocket. Better yet donate it to a cancer society you owe me and foxy kay a big apology! To think people on here don't know the real "angel" how much of a oxy moron is that...more like Devil.. seriously quit burning your bridges girlfriend because you never know when you might need one someday!!

thanks Jordans girls for speaking up.Someone has to speak the truth.

The more rational response- A long must read rant!!!!!

Previously I had lashed out in anger. I was not angry at the mundane comments made, but more I was angered at the juvenile way in which they portrayed my character. The moral fiber of which I use as a guide for my choices in everyday life.

Now much calmer and centered I am truly ready to respond in a way which is more representative of the me, not the anger and hurt which previously clouded my judgment.
My character may be in question of several of your minds now, but I will lay it all out on the line and let you decide. In the end no matter what you decide I am happy with myself.

I personally believe this matter was put forth to ruin "business" for me and to drag me down to a level on which I will not be found on. Not EVER will I succumb to those depths!!

I did in fact not pay my final fee to this so called agency "Jordan's Girls". I did not pay because the owner, not only sent me out on an unverified call with a gentleman that got rough with me, but also because out of greed she tried to change the amount of the agency fee from $100 to $200 dollars. I will not ever pay her as I believe she knowingly tried to use myself and others to personally finance her own leisure vacation while I was supposed to "grin and bare it". I did work for her several years ago, but as I am not weak minded enough to sit idly by and endure such injustice, I QUIT!!!

Since the authors of these posts felt it was their duty to respond negatively to me in a public forum I will let you all in on a few little secrets.

I have had several family members endure the rigors of cancer. My only brother had breast cancer 3 years ago. The tumor was not malignant, fortunately. After a surgery which left a decent scar and a shunt placed in his chest to aid in drainage, some antibiotics to counter any infection, and several weeks of recovery later he was fine.

My Auntie K. on the other hand was not so fortunate. She developed a form of throat cancer. The cancer was removed through surgery, but was malignant. She had to endure both radiation and chemo. The radiation wasn't too bad, and at first neither was the chemo. She had to go through several chemo treatments. When what was left of the tumor began to grow again the smaller doses of chemo became larger. She became very sick. Her hair started falling out in clumps and itching like crazy till she had us girls help her shave it all off. It was a tearful moment and I will never forget it. She lost ALL her hair on her ENTIRE body!! Eye lashes and eyebrows, down to her "coochie". She laughed about it and said she would cut down on the bills at home by not buying razors everyday and getting bikini waxes. Laughter is a funny medicine when you are looking at death with one eye and staring down bill collectors and insurance agents with the other. WE made it through together and she has less than one year left before she will be declared "Cancer Free"!

Currently my Grandma W. is receiving weekly radiation treatments at the Mayo in Scottsdale for skin cancer. Rest assured it is nothing major, more preventative.

I just want it to be known to everyone that I have seen cancer with my own eyes. I have rubbed shoulders and held puke buckets. I have mashed food and cried tears of pain and joy. I would never ever ever wish that upon someone. No one deserves to have cancer, ever.

Jordan and I were at one time friends. We had a falling out that frankly is no one else's business. I never said she was a terrible provider. I never tried to ruin her business. I never fought to keep her out of private provider groups online and if I had ever had a say so over whom was invited to what party I wouldn't have cared if she was around. We have personal differences still, but the type of person she is in no way reflects on the quality of provider she is. You can dislike the mail man as a person or not get along with them, but that doesn't make them a bad mail man.

Now if you would like to make the difference of opinion publicly known Jordan by all means feel free to. That is not a method I prefer, but the choice is indeed yours. I think we need to take care of this drama permanently. I know I have better things to do than argue with someone over something that happened years ago. WE already had a discussion about this last time I called you. I know I agreed to be civil. You know my number and I am willing to take your call.

I will not now or ever apologize for the person I am or the actions that I have taken. I have lived my life, I am sure I have made some mistakes (actually I know I have), but I am also a survivor and have learned from them. By the way I will survive this as well.

Now for the final comment. I wouldn't ever take money for a charitable cause and pocket it. The idea itself is disgusting. I know what it is like to accept charity. It is the most humbling thing you will ever have to do- I pray that none of you will have to experience it first hand. Even though it is humbling to accept it, I was glad that someone had a kind and decent enough heart to give. I swore that I would give back when I was in a position to do so. I am in that position and I have been helping out ever since I have been here. Rest assured I will not stop being charitable. I could have been requesting receipts for all the donations I made, but I thought it was more pertinent for the people at the Red Cross to be helping put together aid packets than it was for them to take the time out to write one. I am to ask for those from this point on scan and post them on my site to prove to people that I did indeed donate?

Personally a little showy for me. Seems kind of conceded to do something like that. After all charity is to be given out of the goodness of your heart, not so you can brag about how much you gave. In my opinion you can never give enough.

I will be dropping off more donations tomorrow. A TV, some clothes, kids toys,  and some cash. Would anyone like to witness that? Or should I get a receipt? I suppose I am going to be accused of being a racist next, maybe a Fascist? So please those of you who do not think highly of me- please just do not think of me at all. I promise you I will do the same.




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