I know the rules.  I know I crossed the line.  I couldn’t help it.  I found myself overwhelmed by the comfort and charm of a client.  I found myself wanting to spend more and more time off the clock with this person.  I spent long hours on the phone and corresponded quite a bit via email.

That’s when it happened.  I found myself in love with a client- or someone who had been a client.  At the time it hit me I felt I would just ride it out and see what happens.  That turned out to be a bad idea.

I am not one to air dirty laundry on a public forum so I will summarize by saying I got hurt.  I fell for a client and then found my heart broken.

I just wanted to toss this out there and see what comes of it.  How am I, as a provider, supposed to offer the true “girl friend experience” by being my normal bubbly self and not get sucked in by the charm of some of the fine gentlemen that come to see me?  I know I am not about to change who I am.  I am a sucker for a sweet talker and I can’t help it.  I don’t want to have to put up a wall or pretend to be having more fun than I am.  How do I do this without getting hurt?


Tonight, Tina Pink is Tina Blue. 

just goes to show you Tina.. YOU'RE HUMAN!  you're not a machine.  how do i know?? i read the reviews.  you have emotions.. REAL EMOTIONS!  I'd be damned surprised if most of the ladies who've been in this for some time haven't fallen for someone.  Don't be blue. Revel in the fact that you ARE human with human emotions.  Please don't change. if you need a hug.. a real.. teddy bear kinda hug, email me.  and.. it's coming! )

oww oww..owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwoooooooooooooo

Tina,

I'm sorry to hear--I feel for you, because I've been in the same situation.  I got involved with a couple in the swinger lifestyle once, and the wife of the couple and I really connected.  So much that I fell for her hard.  She also fell for me, but she wouldn't leave her husband.  Unfortunately, the husband stepped in and cut it off very abruptly.  You have no idea how not even being able to talk to her devastated me.  

Unfortunately, I don't have much in the way of a solution.  It took me a good 4-5 months and therapy to start to get over her.  It's been over a year now, and I'm finally back to the point where I don't think about her.  

I just wanted to let you know that I do feel your pain and understand what you are going through.  

Lurker69

I would like to weigh in on this thread as I have a slightly different perspective.  Going through a divorce and going back to dating "civilians" has opened my eyes as to the type of woman I am seeking.
   Without being maudlin and revealing too much, I realize that prior to my (unsuccesful) marriage, the woman I was most attracted to was one with a certain racy image (masseuse during college, strippers/escorts I met professionally during and after law school.  
  I understand the nature of the transaction, but actually think that I might prefer to develop a relationship with a like minded individual.  That might be impossible, but I assume it does happen.  If I were to totally close myself off to that possibility, what does that say about me as a human being?  Should I take out a personal ad for an escort looking to find her like-minded soulmate?
  Sorry to hear of your plight, Tina.  Remember, in the words of Andy Dusfrene:  "Hope is a good thing".  Never lose your vision for what is possible.

Tina-- Check your e-mail today.  Suffice it to say here that you have more friends than you know and that some can help you cure that broken heart.

makes me Horny! But thats me.

 I was kind of losing faith that people have feelings. It must be me, and my problems. It happens both ways! Nuff said !


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thats why they call it FALLING in love . once it starts you have no control over it, just pray for a happy landing.

Very nicely said. And applies to all of us on both sides.

Thank you.

Damn Tina sorry to hear what happened to you. We came close to meeting one time but my schedule messed that up..I was in the same place only worse a couple of years ago. Moved my ATF down here...left MY family and friends...and all was bliss for about 2 months. Make a long story short when it went bad it went WAYYYYYYYY bad. Now I have a hole in my heart that seems to bleed too much and it has been over 2 years. YES, we are ALL human and from your reviews I can see how you care for others even without having experienced that side of you. Manae was my first provider since and even after this amount of time I found myself sorely lacking in game. Hopefully you will move forward as time does heal all wounds baby. It does get better but man....it sure can leave a mark. Wish i could find someone to smooth this mark out, lol. Hang in there and do not lose your SELF as that would be a definite shame for all who know you.

I am sorry to hear about that Tina, and I hope you will be feeling better soon. That sounds like a challenge to still be yourself, but from what I have read, and your emails, you seem like the best person to recover from this dilemma.

                                     gcal

You are telling me i could have been the one to steal your heart,, damnit to hell!!!!!

::Big Hugs::

...you can appreciate how some of us fell for you and let our heart wander beyond acceptable limits. Sorry your heart is broken, it will mend but let me know if you need help.

Yes Tina dont feel alone for 3 and a half years ago i got engaged to a gentelman i met from this biz...sigh
 I fell head over heels and when he gave me a five caret sapphire ring i melted..I then began to relize i liked this biz to much and it was to much for him to handle so we drifted apart.I am now single and like it better that way for variety is the spice of life.I am sending you a hug.
xoxo
   jordan kay

...I'm not there to kiss it and make it better.