to Phoenix, I feel truly blessed to have left when I did.  

After my son had passed, I use to say to myself "if only I would have stayed put in New Orleans, my son would still be alive and with me."  That might not have been the case since Katrina has destroyed the Big Easy.

I don't know if this is rational thinking; but, I have been able to put some sort of closure on my sons death and I truly believe in my heart of hearts that God wanted his angle back and that is that.  Who am I to question Him...nobody!

So please everyone count your blessings and please be very safe this weekend.

Manae

It's sometimes difficult to understand why things happen the way they do.  But there's a reason....

counting our blessings, praying and donating. You've already shared your feelings in a very recent post. Now your including your personal loss that we have already grieved with you and donated to you.

I would suggest stop making us feel sorry for you to drum up business this is not the forum. Move on or at least stop reminding us here.

In between your last two very recent posts regarding tragdey..your inquiring about having new photos taken not to mention the post regarding your trips to Calif. and the ones your planning soon.

So please everyone count your blessings and please be very safe this weekend.

whoa!!!! mister go easy on the lady.

You go right ahead and post all you want. I am so humbled by your recent tragedy, and your ability to bounce back in the wake of such horrible circumstances. Thank you for sharing, and if it makes you feel better to talk to all of us, I for one will read every last word you type on this board. You earned the right to say what ever you want to here. What did they expect you to do curl up and hide from life. Of course not, you are a woman and a strong one at that, you just keep moving forward sweetie you have lots of us in your corner.
Kisses,
Malissa oxoxo

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had gone by and you were ready to get back into the swing of things.  Less than one week after your loss you were on the San Diego telling everyone you were coming there to get away, then the next week you are on the Twin Cities board doing the same.  You are not helping yourself many in this community feel betrayed but our of respect don't say anything.  You give the appearance that you are using the tragedy to further your business.  Shame if you are.  Apology if this is wrong.  Either way slow down.

...I am not using my tragedy to drum up business one bit.  I've seen one person here in Phoenix since my tragedy and feel as though I can't see any of you because I will be jugded as I am now.  

Shame on you all for thinking what you are thinking.  I consider you all my family even though I have been here for only a few months and I had something on my mind and I spoke it out loud...never again.  Fuck you all!

I am going through something that none of you ever want to experience and I have really noone to lean on.  I am completely lost here because my real hobby family is in New Orleans and at this time, I can't reach any of them...so I turned to this board.

Yes, I went to San Diego after being asked to join Jenni.  I needed a get away and I loved every moment of it; but, I didn't at one moment not think of my son.

So for all of you who are feeling what I am feeling regarding New Orleans, thank you and please pray for all that are currently suffering.

I've had a little too much to drink tonight, so go ahead and slam me all you want  in the morning...I'm sure that I will regret what I posted...but, OH FUCKING WELL.

Love to you all and please do be safe this weekend.

Manae

...I've had a number of gents want to meet with me this last week; but I guess that I am just not ready...but I will be soon...wink.

I have to keep living...because that is what SIRR WILLIAM would want me to do.

I read the boards tonight and am devastated. For the record I still want to thank all of you who came to our families aid in this time of tragedy.  Your love was appreciated and it is getting us through.  However, for you haters who would honestly think that my sister would try to make a buck off of her sons passing, I will pray for you.  You have no idea what it is like to leave her for work and school in a big house with no voice going forth.  I am the one who talked her into going to San Diego and tucking her toes in the sand to keep her from going to be with her son. So if seeing the ocean and the sunrise after one week of this tragedy makes her exploit your emotions for some money, then the sin is mine.

I tell my sister day after day "we either get busy living or we get busy dying" and Sirr William wants us to live.

So, business will go on as usual and if it is not soon enough, sorry... and if it is too soon, sorry; but, either way she loses HUH.  HAVE A HEART!

Manae's sister,

Tracy

If we can't say what we feel here and talk honestly, then we have a problem Houston! Any slams that you want to post after this, belong to me, not her.

Tracy (beloved sister)

Sweetie, There were so many in our community who responded to your tragedy with compassion and support.  Rather than let the bad folks get you down, you could retrieve those wonderful threads and send personal thank you's.  One man in particular just wanted to take you to dinner and share his gentlemanly tenderness.  I'm sure there are others as well.  Replies to these folks is called grace, or in a business sense "social farming."  Bless you.

No one expects you to be ready to do business as an escort during this trying time.

No man could expect you to be hot and horny for him in the bedroom--I'm sure you still feel numb and your libido is zilch. How can you feel normal when you lost your precious son not long ago?

That's why it was a bit surprising to read your advertising posts on other boards. It gave a perception of your character that I'm sure is completely untrue.

If you need funds, is it possible to lean on your family for help, or ask people on TER again for temporary funds?

That way you could lay low, forget about TER and the hobby, and focus on getting your life back together.

Then, you could come back when you are really and truly ready.

Take care, and good luck.

When will it ever be the right time to come back in this boards eyes?  I am a very strong and independent woman that has bills that need covered.  I'm not the type of person to ask for help and my family consists of my sister for whom I've been helping support.

I've advertised and traveled to other cities to work just to avoid what is currently being said and thought of me.  I want to get back to work.  I need to interact with people.   It is a must in my life.  I don't offer a PSE but a complete GFE encounter and it does take a special/gentle type of gentleman to see me during this time of my life.  I like to talk about my son and I will continue to share his life with others whenever given the chance to do so.

I've already taken a break and I am ready to get back to what I do so well.

I'm sorry if you all take offense to it; but, I have to move forward in my life.  It would be nice to have the support of this community to do so.

I would not try to perceive how I would act or react if I lost my child, and would not judge anyone that has.

Ms Manae....torpedoes away? Just so you know......we all care and after reading all these posts it strikes me how people seem to want to apply THEIR values to someone else's life. I for one have no ides how you handle things so well. But I wanted to say thank you for sharing with us and when your ready to go let me know. Love ya babe.

It's not that we don't care, it's just this is not the place anymore....we have grieved with her and helped out with support and financially...many fundraisers and paypal contributions...
Using this forum in Phx and other cities regarding the loss of her son and joining it with another tradedy and ending it with "yourstonight" linking her website...It's just not in good taste....

I've seen other people get slaughter for posting more releated and positive messages and using aliases too!!!The original post was not being insensitive as to her loss or a negative to her but it's a fact if you look at the prior post including other cities on how the posts are being used...it really isn't a good thing and should not be used in this kind of forum...As far a VALUES I think it's obvious.

POOF!

I end all my posts with my link to my site because it is just a habit...a habit that I shall not and will not break.

Trust me...I will not be expressing anymore of my deepest thoughts with this board...but I will continue to share!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I would love to see you again.  Give me a call.

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