To most of the members of this community, I have enjoyed participating in our discussions. Last week, I poured my heart out and spoke honestly about something I felt needed to be addressed. I felt I got my point across eloquently and lady-like and never mentioned anyone by name.

Many thanks to all of you who actively supported me, although it was not my intent to generate support.  I just did not want things to get out of hand about me, as they have about some other ladies of our community who have been truly hurt.

If any other hostilites were brought to the surface between certain parties, well, obviously that has been going on for some time and I am not responsible for that.

Finally, I have to respond to mya who said that I am "anti-provider" and that I "speak negatively."  Well, for one, my posts have always been happy and positive unless I am rightly defending someone. In fact, the gentlemen who know me say that when they see a post by me, they always enjoy it because I actually have something to say-not just silly nonsense like they are used to reading.  And I get along well with all the providers who have been kind to me.  Just because I don't make a public announcement each time I have a personal encounter with another provider, does not mean I don't have any friends in the business. When I make friends, they are my friends for life.   She was out of line and spoke unjustly.

I have found that by coming to my defense, I am, in fact, going against my Buddhist/Yogic beliefs and am not comfortable entering that area.  However, I felt my post was not out of line.  I was raised by hippie parents who taught me to always stand up when someone is unfairly treated, that includes myself.

I now understand why most providers in this town either do not participate on the boards or use an alias' and I will from now on, only participate on boards in other cities I'm visiting, where certain individuals don't feel like they're in charge of the industry.

Also, for those interested, my website will be up within the next few days, it will be:  sweetroxanne.com

And for those of you who expressed an interest in learning yoga, I am now teaching.  Just email me for class info.

I wish everyone here all the best, I just choose not to participate on the Phoenix board anymore.  I hope you will understand and if anyone needs to reach me, email me at [email protected].  I am happy to hear from anyone!

And if anyone wants to criticize me for this post, well, have at me!  I am not going to respond-takes too much energy to do so.

Peace and Love to all,  Roxanne

I also get the feeling that a few of the "Big Name Providers" in Phoenix think they talk for the whole provider community. They try to intimidate both providers, and hobbyists with their comments.

  I laughed when I read the anti-T man party post the other day regarding the posters claim that "Only the lower end providers would be attending". I've heard from a very reliable person that as of yesterday five of the Indies from Phoenix 411 have already committed to attending. Apparently the poster considers the 411 the low end. LOL

 Congrats to T-Man for putting it together. I won't be attending due to a prior commit, but I will certainly consider his parties in the future if he continues to attract a well rounded list of providers.

   T-man has been a target for a long time from
the "Phoenix Clique". I don't know the background of why. Perhaps someone can fill me in.

Peace and love to you Roxanne.  May you stay safe...as we all are in this life together.

forward with your head held high.  Roxanne you are a sincere and beautiful person inside and out.  It is sad that something like this can drive you from the Boards.  As one who has been on both sides I understand your frustration and wish you well.. All hobbyist are pro providers but providers are not always pro hobbyist in one sense or another, as we all think that gains us some unknown favor when most of the time it doesn't.  Everone forgets a hobby/provider relationship is a business relationship and in the end is all about business, nothing personal.  We talk of friends, relationships and the like but few would take either home to meet their parents or the rest of their families.  Providers give to hobbyist a unique gift most of which we never see at home.  So from that point of view thank you for what you have given and know that you will not be forgotten based on this experience.  Hopefully, you will change you mind at some point and again began to share your thoughts with the community.  You have many fans and in closing of this long soap box just know there is no King or Queen of the Boards, just people looking for the fantasy they so long for in their everyday life.  As a good friend has said on many occasions  KEEP THE FANTASY ALIVE, I know you will strive to do that.

it's sad she could chase another one away.

Don't know if I should laugh or scream.  Amazing how the world turns.  First it was the guys....  If you were not in the right group, then you were treated like an outsider.  Every provider wanted to be in their good graces.  Pressure was applied, deals were cut, and if you were not part of this crowd, you were second class.  

Now it appears as thought the ladies are doing the same thing.  

Part of me wants to tell everyone invoved with this to FO, but a bigger part of me understands that this is just the natural growth of our market from a small community with BIG concerns about who to trust to a more competitive market.  As the competition unfolds, the providers and hobbiests will naturally have issues/concerns to deal with.  

This all gets enhanced (IMHO), when one of the new major agencies was part of the prior hobbiest "in group".  This naturally causes concern from some of the prior agencies/independents.

THIS IS NOT A SLAM ON ANYONE, this my attempt to rationalize what is going on.  If everyone will just chill, see their favorites, bite their tongues (among other juicy things to bite), then we will grow out of this with time.  Time = confidence and comfort.

As for me (like anyone really cares), I will continue to book lot's of travel to avoid this BS.

You will be missed on this forum  but not  forgotten.  Thank you for sharing your thoughts.
When you stay true to yourself the path is easy