Not a sad tale, not a sexy tale, a tale that is in my heart and in my head and looking for a forum. I've been actively engaged in the "hobby," as it has so cleverly been come to be known, since approximately the fall of 1990. I was working full-time in a very demanding job. I was a successful young man, but I was still a virgin in many ways. Realizing my limitations, following one particular late, lonely Saturday night in the King of Prussia area, I drove into Center City Philadelphia to take my chances at the only place I suspected I might be able to change my "luck," Doc Johnson's Leisure Time Products at the corner of 12th and Arch. There I wandered in, saw the performing spaces in the back, paid my upfront fee, sat down, and started chatting with a pleasant enough girl in a booth who had a nice smile. Talking back and forth, she realized what I was after, and arranged for me to meet her in a private booth in the back. Only there did I realize that she didn't have hands, more or less a thalidomide child working as best as she could. She got on top of me, I got inside her, she rode me hard, I think I came, the seal had been broken, I wandered off a little sweatier, a little dizzier, and a little...disappointed. The next morning, a Sunday, my body felt like I had fallen off a cliff. Stiff muscles in legs, arms, back, neck. Took several days for that feeling to fade, at which point I had to dive back into my work. Then I started thinking about other ways, other methods. Which led me to the late, lamented newsprint world of Philly Action, City Paper, and Philadelphia Weekly.