I’m married and have had an almost daily messaging relationship with a provider who travels and I’ve seen in person about 6 times over the past 11 months.  I see other providers which we discussed in the past, but when I mentioned it recently she became uncomfortably jealous and accused me of seeking love in many places?  We grew pretty attached but when I recently ask what our status was she said we are friends of the heart.  That was when I felt safe to tell her about recent visits as I felt a couple providers wanting to become closer and see me outside. I wanted to see how my heart friend felt about this and if it was bothersome that we should discuss and make adjustments.  She just went off the deep end instead.  I am now trying to reassure my feelings and devotion for her as my friend.  It’s a work in progress currently…
Has anyone else had such a situation?

Some advise... do not ever talk about other providers. You gotta realize providers are human beings, they jealous. Unless you want to boost your ego, than go for it. (but you may lose a great provider)

Any professional would not be jealous. If she is a true & genuine friend there would be no need to reassure her. Too much work for some bs. I have had long life time friends from this fine lifestyle & never been jealous of what my friends choose to do with their money, or their dick. I have lots of love to give. Sharing is caring. You dump her & dump her fast. You’re already married. No need for extra drama.

your dick being elsewhere, only your money.  Six sessions in eleven months is decent regularity if that's what you can afford.  She will consider herself lucky to have you as a regular, and with the fact that you are married, many providers would consider this evidence that she is the only one getting the money that you hide from your wife.   But finding out you have more money to spend and you are NOT spending it with her is the trigger point.  Telling you that you are getting "love" from her and shouldn't need to see other providers shows that she THINKS she has a lock on your emotions and therefore, your business, so she is making it sound personal when it's not.  

“of the heart”.  Based on what you said about this woman’s behavior, I think what she meant by that is that she doesn’t just love you as a friend, but is actually IN love with you.

Thanks!  Yeah I do want to be friends and I am hoping this experience can help her grow at the least.   11 months of friending is a good attachment especially when we talked almost every day in 2023.   I do have 10+ year friends from the Hobbie but the conversations are very infrequent.   As stated every friend / relationship differs…  I hate to dispose of people like trash after learning so much from eachother and having a beautiful connection in the physical, emotional, and spiritual.   I will stay by her side as long as she feels comfortable and respectful of my situation… Thank you

Yeah of the Heart was a little confusing as the Korean translation of our conversations does seem to throw a wrench in the spokes at times.   I’ve only physically been with her 6x but have 11 months friends time with her Uhg.   I do also have other providers that say I love you…. but I’ve never discussed seeing others outside with them (I am sure they know) .  
I’m not willing to throw this time away as a slam dunk but will see if she is willing to grow through it.  I’m not expecting that to fully work out;  but hoping we be friends.
  It’s a must I stay with the wife and kids…  I appreciate the advice and support here; there’s no where else I could go but here for such support on such a topic… 😩.  

I just might enjoy the work and the drama to some extent…
You’re right about being professional!    I thought she was very professional and she is in her skill.   It’s just that I seemed to have cracked that egg and scrambled it… I knew and told her in the beginning that we would be friends for a long time.  It was a deep feeling like I’ve know her before? Past life? Soul Mates?  IDK but the feeling was intense  since we first met. So crazy… that’s why I am willing to ride it out further with the drama and trying to establish boundaries and reassure my connection with her. Perhaps we just don’t discuss outside livers and call it good?  We’ll see…. Thanks again!!!

Yeah I can understand that view point… I shit that bullet right through my own foot.  We will see if it’s forgivable at this point.

Very good points but I don’t think her kind is on repeat customers and having the lock down.   She travels a lot from east coast, west coast, south central. I would see her every week if she stayed put but the establishment do like to keep their doors revolving… she tends to go where it is more busy.
I pretty sure it was me bringing up the fact that I said I LIKE this other provider killed her heart and her ego.  If she saw me in person this week and we made love to reassure our bond is still there, I’d have a better chance at bringing her back to the table.  It is what hit us at this point and I opened this door as I was missing her badly after 2+ months away, I felt I can’t wait for her and there was / is no sign saying she will have work in this area anytime soon.  I chat with po of tg house she worked at and she said she had a few bad reviews which tainted the waters for herself plus she ran off to east coast after the owner wanted her to satay longer.  The house ended up empty for weeks, then a new new girl occupied it before it shut down completely.  Not a happy ending for the owner

Yes to all…
I guess I’m just bored and looking to chat pretty much all day with people… I do have a full time job and work but have pockets of time where chatting with interesting people is of value to me.  I like the brain stimulation and the relationship building.  Falling in love can be set to the side as just being fun and friendly is enough for me with the occasional meet up.  Home life is complex and stressful with what we have going on so this is brings me a more normal and calming taste of life to chat about hopes and dreams and share positive moments rather than the daily list of must do’s and medications needed to take and Dr appointments, etc.. dealing with special child at home.  

All these comments from every angle are very appreciated!
My overall assessment on my situation in the paste months has been; It’s not a healthy situation.  But my bad self just wanted to keep poking at the bee hive.   In doing so I have hurt her feelings several times which in turn I get less interaction ( and I crave her interaction). So I would get upset when she couldn’t be available for me.  I finally got used to it and slowed my roll for the need of attention.  It’s a situation I went all in on yet sacrificed others who have been there for years.   I can just blame her as I feel it is I who maybe went in over my head and expecting too much from a person who is very busy and devoted at what she does.    
She still makes a small comment on messages I send daily but very very subtle.  I’ll continue posting on this thread as the situation evolves…
Thank you

A civilian friend abroad sent me this Monday unknowing of this situation…. The song hits my heart really hard as I listen to it over  and over this week!! She is a friend of Gold!!!

my analysis.  This is not fixable.  Move on and learn from it.  I assume from you mentioning a "PO" that this is a Kgirl.  
 In that case, never tell your regulars that you are seeing other kgirls.  At best, you are going to get some drama, at worst, she is going to block you, as you just experienced.  Either way, your relationship will never go back to being as good as it was before the rift.  Start over with a new girl and don't make the same mistakes next time.

Best analysis!!! So right….
Actually, the provider I met and told her that I liked is my moving on new girl who hooked me.  Ms Jealous took too long in returning to me and I need that physical attention.  New girl is independent to some extent or at least lives in the apartment she works from so her availability is ALWAYS.  This is the ideal situation I was originally looking for.  It’s just fucking hard to dismiss Ms J and the connection that I had.  We greeted eachother every morning and night 😢. New Girl doesn’t like to text, just show up every week LOL.  The sex is crazy and good though and she is willing to take on my little bdsm fetish, plus she has taken me in without a paid appointment a couple times, and lets me stay as however long until her next appointment arrives.   Last week we slept deep 15 minutes into her next apointment 🤣.  Although I think I was that guy waiting 15 min the first time I met her last month LOL
This group has been nothing short of amazing in allowing me to get my head focused and learn from my mistake.  I hope others here now and who stop by on the future can learn from this as well and we all learn to respect and keep our lovers happy.  🥰

Indeed, the only "jealousy" she feels is you parting with your money elsewhere.

You hear it all the time, jealous spouse kills cheating spouse. How the hell is that considered love? It's possession.

I admit I had my jealousy issues in the past… 7 years ago my wife and I came across a couple who were Polly; the male and my wife became emotionally attached. It drove me crazy but I tried hard to keep myself in check.  With some classes, some counseling, and time I learned how to let jealousy ride its course and not feel that I am losing my wife but possibly gaining a new experience. We ended up participating in a couples swap date and dove into the poly world a bit; even going to a couple sex clubs which I admit was beautiful experience (we didn’t swap there); being in a safe space watching ALOT of people love on eachother in many ways… and most of the people there were beautiful and handsome I must say.
  Jealousy is real and only by educating one’s self on the emotion can you really come to understand and overcome it.  Knowing that you are not owner of your partner and that they are their own free person is key and important to allowing their freedom and happiness to manifest… allow them to find and achieve their happiness and love how they need too achieve it. The live will come back to you much more abundant and it really excites the relationship!

I just found Ms J will be back in my area this Sunday…  
Too bad I’ve already moved on and will have to disappoint her with a no show.  It won’t be easy to resist the temptation but I will be better taken care of elsewhere…  

that want to chat all day OTC.  It's called "timewasters."   The amount of time they are willing to spend texting is directly proportional to how much business you are giving them.  If you are giving her two hours a week, then It's okay to expect a 10-minute greeting once a day, but if you are expecting more than that, then it explains why she blew up when she found out she is the one babysitting you while you spend your money with other providers.  She has a right to feel disrespected.  
Good luck trying to turn this around.  

The truth is that I would be stacking her with paper every week if she stayed put in my area; her choice and better opportunities in traveling took away that opportunity. I would check in with her regularly to make sure she was fine with the daily messaging and she always said she appreciated me; so I continued for her sake.  She just doesn’t have a life outside work and is confined to an apartment daily with her guests. Eat, sleep, work, Tavel home for a few days to rest (but her friends would arrive at her studio and want to go out and stay the nigh,so rest didn’t really happen at home) then off to the next city to continue the cycle again. I tried to motivate her to goto Disneyland (she never been there 🥲) or to the beach, just any sort of vacation. I am able to get out and do alot of outdoors stuff so sending her photos of my outings was my way of getting her exposure to the outside world and beauty of nature.  She would call me Superman for all the responsibilities, things I can do, places I go.   She was my Wonder Woman for her ability to work and work without taking time for herself.  
We havnt messaged for 2 days now which feels like a year for me but I really need to ween myself from her.  She has consumed my time, my heart, and depleted other long time relationships I’ve built over the years. Taking the wind out of my sail…
I’ll wait and see if she lets me know she’s coming to my area this weekend (I already saw her posted as arriving as a new girl)  although I’m telling myself not to see her if she contacts me.  I’ve already promised my new GF that I’d come and make love to her next week as I will be working much closer to her 💕 New GF feeds me snacks, plays guitar for me, allows a longer than paid session, light bdsm, pillow talk, deep sleep nap, a couple meetings outside her work schedule, and she in independent and stays put living in my area… It’s more than I could dream to have in this situation!  She just don’t message much as she said she feels I will break her heart one day; I’m working hard on NOT Doing that.   At that,  another reason I don’t want to see Ms. Jealous because I don’t want to jeopardize my new established relationship.

Last time I shit a bullet, it cracked the porcelain LOL

Damn! That’s a good one played off my typo LOL
*Shot was the correct word…

I broke down this afternoon and had to re-reply to Ms Jealous’ last message stating she was “Sad too” where I gave her reasons why she shouldn’t be sad instead of asking Why are you sad…
She replies back shortly after saying she had some tummy pain and was nauseous and vomiting.  Now I feel real bad and empathetic for her pain.  I really care for her well being so this is making me feel guilt and needing to be there for her emotionally.  
I asked further Q to see if she still has the pain or has seen a Dr??? Now no more replies as usual?   Hopefully she is ok 🙏🏻

Dude, get some help. You’re seriously messed up.

This is one seriously messed-up individual who has no business playing this game.

In your post just above this one, you stated that "...Too bad I’ve already moved on and will have to disappoint her with a no show.  It won’t be easy to resist the temptation but I will be better taken care of elsewhere…".

I’m fine… I’m just in love and don’t want to be…  
It’ll work itself out in time…

And she's the crazy one..lol. Man, get a grip

Yeah I know I sound like an emotional ping pong ball but I truly enjoy the game.   Getting it all out in words here and hearing ALL comments is a great form of reflecting on the situation plus it must be some great reading for others!   This message board is becoming a lot more exciting than the others I’ve read here?  You can’t make this shit up!  I’ve dealt with deeper drama shit that this small drama in my life so I’m good.  As long as Ms Jealous is ok I’m still in the game here; and she was very happy when we messaged this morning.
By the way, she just indirectly invited me to come see her as she is working again (20 min Away’s from me) and feels better; it was the Belgogi that pained her tummy.  Me talking about how I need to move on and avoid the visit is me just trying to protect myself from rejection if she didn’t want to see me plus torn in trying to be fully focused on new provider, I still know she likes me a lot. She of course can’t admit that since she knows I’m not available.  She just doesn’t want to hear about me seeing others.  
I think this is all going to be fixed after I see her this week, and I will make 2 appointments to make up for lost time away (3 months now) Long distant relationships are stressful…
Stay tuned…

Have you told us who this beauty queen is? If not, now’s the time. Fess up.

You're a lost cause, primarily due to your obvious immaturity and completely delusional perspective of what is really going on.  But, I am going to give this one last college try...

She is a woman of erotic talent and desired skills for one who seeks the company of a service star.  Yes she is built of plastic and temp tattoos but is well proportioned for the fun and enjoyment which satisfies that sexual hunger . Her posted photos are enhanced and edited just like most others but not too far off her actual luster.  She maybe a little older than presented though still has the beauty of a young Princess, manors of a ruling  Queen, and the personality of a Dominant Dominatrix.  Win her binding trust and connect with her softened heart and she will give you the GFE which will hook you into wanting more and more…
She is currently in the Bay Area at KL, also owner of AA, in the past she worked at YKG. I have reviews on her so with a little research I am sure anyone can find her. If not I’m available on DM to chat…

And probably no more than an energetic troll.

As I grow older, I see run-away-trains still on the tracks but know they will crash soon. I enjoy a simple life.

You’re right Nicky. He’s a complete jackoff. Can’t answer a simple question. I think it’s time to block him.

Come on man. This is a fuckboard, not a lonely hearts club support group. Not that it couldn't be, but it isn't.  

One of the worst STDs you can catch is feelings.

I get your point!  Yea at this point it’s most likely going to be a regular provider client relationship; all about paper transaction.  I’ve manipulated the situation to turn this way which is better than the emotional STD experience.  I will admit that many months back she did have an emotional attachment to me which was obvious by the love notes, personal fam photos, day to day routine info, personal feelings, and daily time messaging me.  
Of course all that caught my attention and made me like her all that more!  Yea it felt like an emotional rollercoaster which I couldn’t exit.  
The shit is slowing down now with the direct help from this group, my personal life circumstances, and my returning grip
of self control. Sure I’ll still see her this week without any deep emotional expectations.  I’ll respect her and be there to give her the business which I feel she deserves more so than my other providers being she HAS give so much time to me.  I plan to remain a friend to her and see her as much as possible while she is in town.    
The woman cooked simple Korean foods for me a couple of the few times I saw her for fuck sake, she would Abel me in early to the appointment jeopardizing her employment, she trying to get me to see her outside or come to LA at her Studio as a friend…  
She Sedona went out of her way to be more than just a provider to me.   She claims I have been the only man she messages; I know most of you all would call BS on that hit knowing and seeing her I sense it to be true.  I also hoped she would have other men she chats with because that’s just fucking weird and gave me a feeling of high expectations to be the only chat friend she would have…  
I hope my shit is making more sense with the more info I am throwing out here?  On top of this we had a death in the Fam this week which is a lot to be emotionally processing…

I fantasize of a simple life most often… how do I get there????

After reading the waste of  my time. post about “Scary Massage Parlor Experience” I was more encouraged to post my experience here… My shit is real here and I feel the drama is going to play out in several turns of events and emotions.  I feel that the future of my story will have a better than expected value here…  
It my goal to get there at least…

She gives you FREE time , assume you do not pay her for your daily texts, while you spending your $$$ on other providers.  It’s not jealousy - don’t flatter yourself! .  She is mad/upset, doesn’t find it fair.

I’m hoping we have that going on!   Haha
Seems like we are both torturing eachother some days but only time will tell, meeting this week May she’d a little light on our current status as well.
The board has offered many forms of advice and all have been appreciated!!! I’m soaking it all in like a sponge and processing.  Just going through a lot this week and feeling like things are settling ATM… thank for all comments here!  

Yea those are valid points which were previously brought up.  My recent reply to another post covers some ground on this.
In addition… she wanted to buy some investments here but since she is t a citizen she couldn’t open a certain account… I helped to cover 10k in purchases to send to her Korean account in turn she gave me cash for the transactions… at that we did help each other out on many levels.. I hope this info sheds even more light on Trish we had for eachother.
Thank you

It’s not easy to pay for her when she is not in town
I’ll see her tomorrow I hope to make up for lost pay.  
I’ll send her some Bitcoin also if things go well…

Agreed . She is jelly that the whole cash pile isn't going her way.

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But how is this different than women in general?

Fuckboard?  I’ve seen posts debating that very statement… why is it titles discussion board then???  Looks like any topic is game here from what I can see. If you want to talk about ducking then create a discussion on it Bruh!  I’d be interested…

for this girl that you are willing to launder her prostitution cash.  There are enough risks to look out for in this biz that you don't need to add more to the list.  

After meeting today F2F the jealousy was addressed and my reassurance of loyalty of my heart to her was heard.  Although she mimicked others girls saying “I love you, I love you” to me I told her the feelings of my heart belong to her.  I don’t think she bought it but we moved on with more hugs and kisses.  I brought her a few tokens of my affection like pink Roses, assorted fruits, and an added 50 roses. We snacked a little on the fruits I bought as she put the grape in her mouth and brought her lips to mine and transferred the fruits to my moth; this was on going through the sesh… After the prolonged greeting at the door and proclamations of sorries,  and missed you so much,  we were off the the fun room where I received the best services thus far from Ms Jealous.  
 After fun time she opens her phone and wants to send me back the shit coins I sent to her. Something about having to change her phone and thinks she’ll lose all the tokens. She only likes BTC any how so I’ll convert them and send it all back in BTC for her.   When leaving she said goodbye to my by my. AMS for the first time.  Sounds like we rekindled what what lost after today!  I don’t plan to be as deeply connected as we were but we will definitely be connected for a long time.  
As good as services can be from other providers I just don’t feel as well cared for as I do with Ms Jealous. It’s just the way she looks at me and wants to please me to the core, then looks at me some more with them damn sweet loving puppy dog eyes. I feel things are going to get better and better here!
Be positive and positivity will guide your life…

WTF money laundering?  Does the mind need to go directly to the bottom of the barrel?   I knew this comment would arise when I’m posted my message…    The girl wants to be smart and invest her hard earned cash from r her future retirement in a diverse spread of assets, BTC being one of them.   It’s her investing for her future not the other.
Last I checked there is a sea of civilian women out there who enjoy taking a man’s money, time, and emotions on a daily basis.  It’s expensive to date ANY woman…  
Reality Check!!!

Actually, it’s already weird. OP seems extremely unhinged with very bad boundaries.

Facts… I see the rudeness in my words.   Unfortunately I was defensively replying to @SuperGoldenGlobe69 post without consideration on how it would be read by the person of subject.  After todays meet up however I think she would be fine as we did discuss and address these very topics!  

After 6 days of this threads existence, it's time to call BS on JustJ1915's entire situation as he's described it.  

Did she declare these cash earnings and pay some tax on them before you cleaned the money for her?  If what you did for her is NOT money-laundering, what would YOU call it?  Most of the providers I know declare some of their cash earnings and pay taxes by taking the standard deduction instead of itemizing.  That way, there is nothing to audit unless she gets too flamboyant with the excess cash that she didn't declare, but the point is she has paid taxes and can lead a normal visible life with her financial dealings just like a woman with an office job.  She can buy real estate, lease a car, invest in mutual funds, or whatever she wants.  There are many types of self-employment service jobs where people are paid in cash, so this is not new.  Of course, if you tell her to just declare some of her income and pay the tax on it, then she doesn't need you anymore, right?  She can open all of her own accounts and you lose your control over her.  

What you actually rekinkled was a provider/customer relationship that was headed off the rails because you thought that because your feelings for her were real, her feelings for you were also real.  You are a john.  Accept it and enjoy your time with her, but until she voluntarily tells you, "You're my boyfriend now, so you don't have to pay for sex anymore," skip the "real relationship" crapola.  Get a grip and realize who has the "puppy-dog eyes."  

I don’t know how she handles her financial affairs really, she not my wife…. Sending crypto is something I do with anyone who is interested as I believe in the technology of the blockchain and like to see new skin in the game.  You can legally monetary gift friends and family up to an X amount…

Thank you for your well wishes!  
Don’t worry about me I am just fine… yeah I became unhinged and went a little off the tracks recently but at least I am aware and have the beautiful people here to address my life’s derailed behaviors… Today I’m on a new path and I’m already being noticed from con workers asking what’s wrong with me today?  I guess she liked the old me?  
WTF… can’t win

Best guess: the OP has no friends or family and is using this Board for basic human interaction. The story keeps getting dumber and dumber, and he keeps digging the hole deeper every time he is challenged by an experienced hobbyist/provider. As cdl pointed out, he went so far as to admit to money laundering for an escort cleansing the proceeds of an illegal business. Unbelievable! He's a train wreck beyond repair.
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Fun fact: virtually all of the OP's posts have 1 like. Appears he's liking his own posts to make himself feel better, because no one here could like this drivel.

You're a....

Yeah as long as you all keep reading and posting I will keep making this story play out!!!! This is good shit!!!
You all don’t know WTF 🤯.  And your best educated explanation is “Train Wreck” LOL.  I am not sure who’s more entertained here at this point… me or themz? 🤔.    
I just know that this posting is gaining more interest every day and peeps seem to keep coming back for more!!!  
LFG!!!!  

Best advice on this thread

don't tell your side chick about other bitches.  lol

think that you are neglecting your family because of your desire to have "real feelings" with her.  She's a businesswoman and knows that this is going to blow up some day.  She's smart enough to discourage you from giving her more when your kids might go without as a result, because that will likely bring some scrutiny from your wife.  She's happy to keep the amount the same and keep the business relationship going for as long as you are able.  

This is the best advice on this whole thread!!

Keep it up kid. Pretty soon you’ll be able to show your mammy that you’re one of the top 10 posters on this board. I can hear it now: “Mammy, I’m famous. They like me, they really like me!”
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Get help, please. You’re doing yourself so much harm by digging your hole deeper.

Even girls who are desperate enough to have accepted that they are merely the side chick don't want to hear that they are not the ONLY side chick.  That's going to create way more drama than it's worth.  Lol

I feel I need to change the title here or start a new posting titles Jealous Subscribers of my Blog!!!!  All your ill wishes on my keep pouring in with ever post I make,  just gets me more pumped to make some more shit up here for the audience to absorb like little sea sponges!  

Stop replying then!   Your enabling me… 🥺
We must all be co-defendants here and sex addicts / addicts in general…. Not saying it’s bad.  It is what it is as long as you’re not in denial.    
I’m a top poster?  
I’ve only recently began posting.  Although this whole discussion site does seem pretty damn dead with only a handful of regular posters from what I have seen.    
Livening things up here can be good business for everyone if you have a brain and think about it.   Drama sells in this country!
I see no harm in bringing the dramatic story to the people here who are coming in by the 100’s each day; can’t promise I can keep it up so we will need another train engine to take my place here soon 😩.  LOL

train wreck memes from Nicky.  I think that is a record, so I doubt anyone will be taking your place anytime soon.  Lol

Just 3 train wrecks??? I guess I better try harder then 😝
I’ll take it as a badge of Honor!    
No regrets No remorse on my end but I guess I live in my own fabricated bubble outside of most people’s world.
I have no complaints….
I’ve restored my relationship with Ms Jealouse and have set new boundaries,  I have my other friends messaging me to check in and see if I am well and when I can hang out… family life is better than ever and about to get even better.
In the mean time I’m just going to keep my head down and be humble and appreciating all that the universe brings into my life; good, bad, and ugly because life is a mixed bag and we need to embrace it all. All I need now is an awesome day of surfing 🏄🏻‍♂️ and life will be complete!  The perfect plan would be to take off Friday from work and make it a beach day / Me time!!!
Keep sending the train wrecks please!!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

desperate are always setting NEW boundaries to justify why they are so smitten that they just can't walk away.  This is classic "love-sick puppy."   Lol

Spent some time with my viet provider yesterday after a long break since she was working north bay. Now that she was 15 min from where I was working I set a date and met her at the house where I found 4 Ladies working 😍.  Sure I had my fun time with my friend but as a bonus I got to hang out with the ladies who fed me the best and biggest spring rolls I ever had along with Vietnamese ice coffee 😋.  I had to of course be on my mown good behavior as my friend has shown her hot temper and signs of jealousy in the past.  I know her well and know my boundaries with her.   She always feeds me when I see her so I consider her a golden friend as well as provider.  After fun and eats she had me driver her to her personal place to drop some stuff off there and pick up a bed to take back to the other place.
At her place she told me to just lay down and sleep, so I did. It was the best nap ever… then I woke to her massaging me and poking to do another round which I wasn’t up for as I really needed to get back to my responsibilities… we went back to the house and delivered the bed and I was on my way with a refill of iced coffee!!! She tears me like a King as much as she can, I am grateful for these types of friend providers!

It’s not jealousy per say.. but I prefer them seeing only me, for financial and safety reasons.

I can very much respect that expectation

Somehow this thread got moved to a new category… oh well.
Anyhow the situation with Ms. Jealous has gained new traction and became a more stable situation.   I no longer have the daily craving and need to text her every day.  Backing off from texting for days at a time has given the space to not feel so attached and she seems to appreciate me a lot more and is starting to open up to share more personal conversation.  Staying away from the subject of work has also been a key choice in rebuilding the relationship.   Many here posted that it’s over and it’s time to move on etc.. etc… I feel I have a good bond with her and like any strong relationship we have worked through some drama and come out stronger friends on the other side of it all.  
Since she is a traveling working girl the physical attachment isn’t much present.   In its place I have attached myself physically to the other provider who lives independently in my area.   This is developing into a whole new scenario which has its own story and drama… a work in progress but the sex is the best I have experienced and she is a lot of fun to hang out with outside. I find her to be a great chemical balance to myself; I know she feels it too but she doesn’t personalize her feelings to me much.  I find it a fair way to stay professional and at the same time enjoy each others company as a client or out as friends…

Thanks, I just very much appreciate loyalty and growing a relationship together and we can’t do that if you’re seeing other girls as well. I personally think the sex only gets better the longer you know each other and find out your guys likes and dislikes and what really gets y’all going. It’s just better to have a regular girl anyways. Safer.

You are so right again… I do enjoy a lot more intimacy with my long term partners and a beautiful sexual experience.  I like to please my partner so I guess she gets more value than myself I tend to think, which leaves me remembering the wild 1st encounter where it was all about pleasing me.  My current partner I am working on building this long term partnership with has me feeling happy and content each time I see her.   It’s a very deep and passionate intimate time together every time, and we are just going into mish and cg most times… every other week we get a little more wild and crazy with eachother but it’s been a busy past 2 weeks helping her move… I wait for her now as I write this as she is readying herself for me…

Wow, another great time!  Although she was busy and in and out of the BR we managed to have another great session; if I can qualify it as that? She was already showered so I asked if it would be ok for me to shower which was ok’d.  Afterward I settled on the bed as she was in and out dealing with her visitor entry  box code set up for her new place.  I finally got her to lay down and massaged her.  This really worked great to a start our intimate stage of another erotic experience.  We went non stop for an hour and I’ll spare the details for a later review when I can post again.   We relaxed together and then went for a 2nd shorter round.   Relaxed some more and ate fruits together.  After 2 1/2 hrs together I had to get going.   I slipped her some tips but she returned it back saying to save it for when she start officially working again!  She’d done this to me several times now.  I think we agreed that I should come back tomorrow?  LOL  
At that I better get to sleep and get some good rest…
GN

No different lol ever, it just costs less. But then again that’s if you meet with the right providers. I don’t see drug users and I almost never have bad experiences.

Since my last post the relationship
With that partner continues but not without drama which has effected my performance ability to some extent.   We both chatted about it and agreed… now the talon is to try some BDAM play?  I have some knowledge of this type of play and have dabbled years ago but today I would say I’m a newb but willing to try this with her.  I saw her as a dominant when we first met and she gave it to me his strap… but over time she became such a submissive when she isn’t accepting my papers.  I prefer the dominant but wi work with what we have.  
I’m not sure how or why this thread got pushed to “Other Cities” can anyone explain???  
After 2 weeks of non com with Ms J. I have determined chatting with her brings joy into my daily life and keeps my sexual peek of interest at a higher level.  She confirmed that she also derives enjoyment from receiving my messages;  this is all organic friendship at a distance and I haven’t seen her for months.  I just don’t mention other partners with her anymore and the relationship runs smooth… it’s been over a year now!  
I becoming proud of myself for being able to be a good friend for Ms J as she has for me…