I had an experience that I regard as unusual and unsettling.  I'm looking for feedback, reassurance, or something.  

I picked a provider that was totally hot, somewhat reviewed, and fairly expensive.  The last was not a criterion, just a fact.  I appreciated the fact that she was near work and the reviews said that she conducted herself in a safe manner.  (not sure about this BBBJ thing, I like to fuck and I don't want to bring anything home)  

I made an appointment the first time with her for the next day and proceeded to spend the next 12 hours in a state of high anxiety, so much so that I cancelled the appointment the next morning because I had only had about 1 hour of sleep.  The bulk of my anxiety must have been the fear of LE, but I think there may have been other underlying factors.  

About a week later, I was rested and working up the courage to try again.  I finally did, but decided that I'd try to do this without an intervening night of sleep, in fact, I made the appointment 15 minutes before arriving at the door.  Her screening was "How old are you?"  "What town do you live in? " "What is your profession?"  "Why did you pick me?" and little else.  She gave me brief instructions and I called again when I got nearby.  She then gave me the house number and instructed me to park across the street.  

When I rang the bell, someone even hotter than the pictures answered the door.  I'm into petite women and she fit the bill more than I expected. I'm 20 yrs older than her, and she's amazingly hot.   I put the envelope on the counter and she thanked me and set about counting it.  After that she led me up the stairs and instructed me to clean up a bit.  We chatted and I stripped.  She stripped to a thong and bra and she was even hotter than the girl at the door.  We did a light massage and she flipped me over.  She then leaned over me to get the massage/lube, giving me an opportunity to touch her.  I had to ask permission, that's just me, and she merely purred  "mmmmmhhmmm" in response to my request to remove her bra.  I then set about kissing her breasts and noticed the first unusual thing.  Her nipples tasted medicinal.  I was too excited/nervous to stop and wonder at this point.  

She removed her thong, prepared the condom, lubed me up with her hands, placed the condom over me and after suppressing what appeared to be a brief wave of revulsion, she sucked me for a few seconds. (I'm not obese, hairy, ugly, or disfigured.)  I asked if I could touch her and that was fine, but she didn't allow oral contact except for "regulars."  She then stood over me as I lay on my back on the bed, and facing away from me, she lowered herself on me, guiding me in so I could see her tiny ass and her slender young back.  At first I thought I could hold out, but within 30 seconds it was all over and all I could think of to do was apologize and tell her she was too hot.  She stayed on top for a couple of seconds after I came and gave me a squeeze, something I love, and then she climbed off.  

I noticed the condom was nearly empty, very little fluid was in it and I at first felt self conscious that I didn't produce enough semen to seem "manly" so I said something about having jerked off a couple of times that day to prevent a quick trigger.  Usually, I produce more than that even if I'm on my third shot within a couple of hours.  Also, I went from semi-erect to done in a matter of only a minute, so there might not be a large volume.  She instructed me to go clean up and to drop the condom in the wastebasket and, without thinking, I just followed her instructions.  At that point I was thinking that this experience had taught me that jerking off was cheaper and safer and this might be my last time as well as my first, despite the hotness factor.  

During my long drive home, it occurred to me that the condom might have been defective or sabotaged and the idea of baby-rape (that term is new to me) entered my mind.   Now I'm wishing that I had at least run water into the condom to see if it held.  

It took a day before I could eat again, and it's now nearly a week from the event and I think I've finally absorbed it.  I enjoyed it, but I have had lots of anxiety about all the aspects of this encounter except for the sex.  Worse yet, the wife decided she wanted sex the next day.

I decided not to call the provider and ask her if she was on the pill or would mind trying "plan B."  It's one of the first times I've ever decided, consciously, to leave things to chance. It's my feeling that she's probably not in the business to trap middle-class men into child support.  My biggest concern is that I will be found out by my wife, and a paternity suit would definitely be a problem.  

I don't know if I will become less anxious over time if I continue this or if I am doomed to be a nervous, paranoid, worry-wart.  I am thinking of trying again, and initially, I thought I'd pick the same girl so that she could become more comfortable and maybe our experience would improve, but she's expensive and I'm just not into forcing myself on someone that doesn't click with me.

1. Was I drugged?  There wasn't any time lost, but I did have an extremely dry mouth following the encounter, prior to leaving her place.  Do some women use tranquilizers in this way (applied to nipples) to control men or make them more docile?   My one experience with valium did not make me feel intoxicated, in fact I didn't notice a difference.

2. Is it common for a quick release to involve very little semen?

3. Was her suppression of revulsion possibly really her suppression of fear as she leaned over to suck me because it was the point of no return if I was LE?

4. Do I over-analyze things?

over-analyzing).

You need to do a little more research on the reviews.  The provider you got was not, for a lack of a better term, GFE, which is what you seem to be looking for.  If you don't have VIP, get it so that you can read what actually occurred in the session.  

Rule of thumb for newbies:  She should have at least 10 reviews by reviewers who have at least 5 reviews to their credit.  That way you can see if there is consistency in the performance - and not the scores but the descriptions.

Also, relax.  She doesn't want your baby, she wants your cash.  Your anxiety probably accounts for the lack of fluid.  

Good luck

You are really over-thinking this whole thing.  

This is supposed to be fun.  She was obvioulsy a hot babe.  

It sounds to me like you had a lot of anxiety, which is probably the best explanation for everything you experienced (lack of huge load, quick release, dry mouth, etc).

Next time try spending 10 or 15 minutes talking to the lady and engaging in some more extensive foreplay - that should put you at ease a bit and make the session go better.

Just go with the follow - let her lead the way.  She's the pro - she knows what she's doing.

but in the real world, such things just don't happen.

There are so many factors, both logistical (How would she know which trick was the daddy?) and stategic (How could this be a viable business plan?) that the whole thing is, for want of a better term:  coo-coo.

You are a born worrier, that is for sure.  Hobbying may not be for you.

I you want to give it another shot, see a gal who is uber-GFE.  Someone who will make you relax and feel good about yourself.  Ween yourself off of the eye candy factor and go for more of the social factor.  You might even want to consider a tantrika, but that's a whole other blog post.

As for your wife wanting sex, that is not uncommon.  After men have sex, they emit chemicals that attract women.  I had noticed this many times back when I was married.

Your lack of ejaculate is most likely related to poor hydration.  I will suggest that you had little to drink or eat prior to the sex.  

I have lots of nutricious and juicy foods a few hours prior to having sex; and the results are very satisfactory.  Bananas and pineapple juice are a good combo.

1. No you were not drugged. You must have watched that asinine CSI show where the call girls put something on their nipples to knock men out. Makes for a good movie, but can't happen in real life. For one thing, you simply couldn't get a big enough dose of any type of drug from simply sucking on nipples. So relax.

2. Who cares how much semen you produce? There is no correlation between amount of semen produced and "manliness". I know some very manly men who produce no semen at all when they orgasm. Perhaps you have watched a little too much porn where men produce copious amounts of spooge because it is photogenic. As far as cause goes, it is likely that your self release is more to blame than your quick release though.

3. When you handed her the donation, you were "past the point of no return" as far as LE goes. If she appeared to be fighting back revulsion, then why on earth are you considering going back to see her? Actually, after the experience you described, why would you go see her again? You said she was "expensive" which is a relative term, but honestly, your experience would rate a 4-5 on a scale of 10 from most men and if you paid more than $$ for your experience, you were flat out ripped off. Particularly if she claimed to be GFE in her ads, because she was anything BUT a GFE provider. Look for a GFE lady with oodles of stellar reviews, and compare the difference in your experience. It will be like night and day.

4. You most definintely over analyze things.

One last point. With regard to this "baby rape" notion, I couldn't help but chuckle a little. Yes, it appears a few celebrities have experienced this where the woman either sabotages the condom, or saved the contents of the condom in order to intentionally knock herself up. There are two key factors here though, first the poor guy was a celebrity, thus easy to track down later. Second, the guy was loaded, thus representing a potentially huge return on investment. Are you loaded? Probably not enough to make a woman want to take such a drastic move. Furthermore, even if you did have that kind of money, how is she to know that? Last but not least, why would a lady who has built an excellent reputation (assuming that next time you select a lady with a long list of excellent reviews) throw all that away on you? Just drop this idea of your spunk being used to trap you with a baby. Good plot for a movie, but not happening in real life.

Maybe you should try another, like golf or fishing.  However, you will find it gets easier the more you hobby.  You should really look for a true experienced  gfe provider and you will only know this if you read the juicy details which means VIP. Good luck

relax and go with the flow.  Yes, you did way over analize the situation.

As has been said, read the reviews more carefully and be sure to select a GFE next time.

I agree with the others - definite GFE.  Find someone attractive to you, but not so much that she scares you.  Look for friendly and safe.  Don't try for the ultimate experience, try for someone who can give you your first good experience.  Usually, I have a better time with someone at least in her late 20's, even though young ones are tempting.

I haven't had my first experience and am anxious/nervous as heck. Was it all over when she instructed you to go and clean up? Aren't you allowed for the time allotted?

I'm curious because I see some that "MSOG is extra". If the experience is over with in a short amount of time, then can we repeat the fun or is it really extra $$$?

Unless I completely misunderstood what MSOG means, then... ???

Do you have a link to her ad notyetbroken? I'm curious to see what she looks like.

I vote #4. You over analyze and frankly, you're paranoid.

Thank you for your responses.  By looking at the range of them, from helpful to just shy of derisive, I can try to figure out where center is on my experience.

If some of you care to comment on the little things and how normal they are,

1. So I probably wasn't drugged.  I was thinking more along the lines of suggestible than narcotized, but I don't have an explanation for the taste of the nipples.  I don't believe that it tasted like soap, and I didn't lick anything else.  Do some women use anything antiseptic that might explain it?  Our appointment was fairly short notice.  

2. The quantity of semen I produce isn't really an issue, but was one of the noticeable deviations from my expectation, and one explanation for it was equipment failure.

3. Suppression of revulsion and point of no return with LE.  One of you said that that point arrived with placing the envelope on the counter.  I didn't realize that was the case, particularly if there was no discussion of specific services.  Would you care to comment more on that or is that a discussion for another place and time?

4. I seldom fail to over-analyze things and I know this. Like I said, I hardly ever leave anything to chance.   I have to poke fun at myself sometimes.  

Thanks to the person who posted a criterion more exact than "well reviewed."  I see that it's more about consistency than about what I was concerned with.  Also, GFE might be what I want after all.  By the way, this particular provider was not reputed to be GFE, but she didn't have that many reviews.

I don't think I'm done with the hobby, but the urgency isn't there right now.