I had her slip a cover on me and be my first yesterday.

Had hard time cumming, but did manage to CIM before end of our date.


-- Modified on 7/27/2010 8:59:57 PM

My first time was Monday.

Any other newbies reading this, some advice from a fellow: it's a very personal decision, but I have to say that I'm personally glad I went for it.

I've been lurking TER for close to two years now... checking out reviews and the discussion boards (TheLoveGoddess's posts alone are worth it), always contemplating, never seriously considering. I got as close as calling a provider (who didn't answer) once before giving up.

Something in me finally just kind of clicked on Monday and I decided I had to get laid. My heart was going faster than a double-bass metal drumbeat from the time I arrived in the parking lot until I left (the provider-- a gorgeous, sweet lady who I cannot heap enough praise upon for making an awkward situation comfortable-- even commented on it when she found out it was my first time).

Anyway, I was terrified that the experience would leave me depressed, especially with regard to the whole paying thing and my low self-esteem (not to mention losing the V card being a one-shot, no returns deal)... but actually it was fantastic and I almost felt a little buzz afterwards (fucker's high? .

The actual SEX wasn't that great but that's entirely because I hadn't a clue what I was doing... I had a lot of fun with a beautiful woman and lost that awful, stigmatizing burden of being a male college-aged virgin. Either by itself would probably be worth it to me, and together they made for a fantastic, memorable experience.

Speaking of memorable, I have to admit that I just can't stop thinking about the encounter. I am a habitual weed smoker but all day I long I've barely thought about toking and keep reliving the experience in my mind. I will definitely visit her again before I leave to study abroad. I'll be going to the Netherlands (go figure right) so hopefully I'll meet some similarly great providers there. Though, I haven't thought about whether I'd like to make this a regular thing... I don't want to get complacent and give up on civvy relationships, which I certainly view as a danger.

Sorry for the long, rambling post... I've been DYING to talk to someone about the experience since it happened but this is the only place I've felt comfortable enough.

Way to go pop that Cherry.  Now you don't have to fear marrying the first person you loose it with.