who am i, well i think u should know that first off. i am 59 almost virgin almost i said. my late wife (almost 3yrs) was bed ridden, and 640 lbs...no THAT IS NOT A TYPO. ITS 640 sorry caps stick. so i might as well have been alone for the last 15yrs. sex ha ha, wasnt any i know u didnt ask but some of my questions would be about that. im trying to give u an idea of me,, before i try to do something that may or may not be allowed..why am i hear,,,humm well to learn about how to deal with "ME" as a person and how do i start over after 27 yrs. (it was that long) i have no idea what im doing.i dont have any idea what to do. i think i need someone to talk to and try to see where i am in this day to day world where nobody seems to have time now to stop and say hi. and i sure dont want the hey im 2000 miles away send me money ill come see u..

where there are no providers to choose from?

If so, that is a problem, but not insurmountable.

Can you find a reason/excuse to get to a medium size city that has a number of TER reviewed providers?

Also, have you read the instruction manual above?

If not, you need to do so; and getting VIP membership would be a good idea also.

We can help you get involved with this; it sounds like you need to.

We all went through some kind of situation that brought us all here and we enjoy helping each other out.

There are many nice providers who would love to reaquaint you with the wonders of sexuality

Let's work on this together.

the problem isnt where i am its more i dont know what im doing or how to do it u say read the manual hummm where do i click.. that sounds strange but i wasnt on the internet much and dont know too much either. and how can u help i dont know that either.

you'll get all the basics of the Gash for Cash game there.

 To be honest I acquired most of my internet prowess learning to navigate around TER so don't feel alone. Usually if a word is shaded a different color or it is underlined it means it's a "Hyperlink" that will take you to another page of information simply by putting your cursor on it and "clicking".

My ATF(AllTimeFavorite) gave me a coffee mug that says "The Internet is for Porn". Seeing that the quest for pragmatic pussy transformed me from a computer illiterate to a self taught "Power User" in one year I'd say my coffee mug speaks volumes.  

read the threads on this board, go back as far as you like.

You have a lot of studying to do, I hope you like to read a lot.

Have you found the Instruction Manual yet?

It's right above the box that says "top posters"

yes i found it and no i dont think it was there the first time. but anyway im kinda in a small big city, dont know how thats going to help but i also dont know if im supposed to tell anyone where i am.

just don't ask here for specific recommendations about a specific lady.

You might want to try searching the reviews by your area code, or leave the city blank, but put you the name of your city in the location field.

i put in wyoming and even put in the zip code but it doesnt seem to list the state even, cause it showed no results for the state i understand that but oh well.

Why don't you consider moving to Denver or some other place where women sell themselves for money?

i still dont have any idea what to do it seems im in the wrong area and there is no moving out of it.