So I started hobbying probably 10 or so years ago. It started once a month or so when I just wasn't getting enough at home. I took a few breaks now and then, a few times for finance reasons, and few times cause I just didn't have the need.
The significant other who I have had at home the whole time is losing interest the past few years, so my hobby time has increased. I'm now at a good 5-6 times a month.
I've been lucky I made friends with an agency girl who eventually retired a few years back. I know it's hard to believe but yeah we really are friends, we go out to lunch, dinner, talk, chat, run errands, and so on. We do still have a business relationship and I see her 2-3 times a month, I know that won't last forever, but the friendship will continue. When I have the need and she isn't available, I'll see other girls, she knows about it and is fine with it, we jokingly refer to it as the "B" list.
Last week I called on the "B list" and it was such a bad experience I have decided to take a break.
It was a typical hide behind the door greeting, while she was the girl in the picture, it was a good 5 or more years ago, and the mileage during those 5 years were some really hard miles. if I was smart I would have bailed right there but I would have had to physically "move" her out of the way, and it just wasn't going to happen. I should have put the money on the table said I changed my mind and gotten the hell out of there, but her facial expression and body language made me think that's happened before and she was going to be yelling at me in the parking lot as I drove away, so I stayed.
To her credit she did put in the effort, but no matter what she did I never really got hard. Eventually I jerked myself off, pretended to finish, and quickly dashed to the bathroom to remove the condom & get dressed. I made some excuse about having somewhere to be so I didn't get caught, she was disinterested, and I just got the hell out of there.
I got home I spent what felt like an hour in the shower, thinking to myself "what the fuck was I thinking" and "why didn't I just leave". She is someone who has reviews here mostly 7-8's so it's not like I didn't do my homework. Maybe it was the combination of being a bad day for her and YMMV moment, but it was a zen moment of clarity, and not a good one.
The experience was so bad I feel I need a break.
I'm not going to say I'm done seeing providers, but I am done seeing "new" providers I've never seen before.
Have any of you ever had an experience so bad you needed to take a break?