Here's a situation I'm sure other people on this board have encountered before.

1) Get over it and quit.
2) Stalk her until you are arrested. Rumor has it, she quit because of an obsessive/stalking client.
3) Keep looking for the same experience with others.

I can understand your frustration, I once had a young lady, who I had an exclusive arrangement with. All UTR of course.

This Babe was all that and then some! the stories that I could share. LOL

We had so much FUN! That went on for just shy of 3 years, and then she announced to me, that she wanted more.
At the time of the announcement, she let me know, that she was interested in me, as a BF, and was talking about co habituating, I declined the very flattering offer, and attempted to work out some other kind of agreement, to which she declined. Then we moved on.

So, with that, coupled with the fact that there has been no other arrangement, as her and I had. I dabbled a bit, then I retired. End of story.

.... the b2b provider you're talking about. (btw, this is one reason to post under an alias--especially when you have only 1 review!) I can tell you there IS life after this woman, no matter how great she was or you think she was. I've met several providers since and had wonderful times with them. But they're different from this retired provider..... in looks, in behavior. They didn't "rattle my senses" in exactly the same way as the retired provider - but they had their own unique ways of rattling my senses, that's for damn sure!

If so then quit trying to compare them to someone you admit is not replaceable and enjoy them for who they are and what they offer.

Thanks all. I should point out that I'm not posting under an alias.

...and pretty bodies help dissolve the memories
but they can never be what she was (was) to (to) me-ee-ee

You mean... air? Minus the hydrogen and heavy gases of course.  

...perhaps, "let the nitrogen and the argon float your thoughts away" would have conveyed the same intended feeling. I couldn't help but think of this song when you described your efforts to substitute others for what you realized can't be replaced; your memory of her. Unique is just that. Never to be repeated.

It's very difficult whenever you lose someone that you're close too. I've had a lady retire that I felt close to and was able to maintain communication (with her permission) for a while but eventually she stopped responding. I've found some peace in knowing that she has just moved into a new phase of her live and is happy. I still do write to her on special occasions letting her know I'm thinking of her but not expecting a response.  

Take a break and try to accept the fact that she has moved on.

Thanks Fuzzy, you hit on a point there - I decided not to keep in contact out of respect (I could have) plus also out of the knowledge that the sessions were fantastical in nature and communication in 'civvies' could have broken the spell. Plus in the knowledge there could be factors in her life I'm unaware of so I just decided to call it quits out of respect I guess.

Fuzzy great advice! I'm sure the occasional email from you to her would not be seen as inappropriate.
Maybe just one where you tell her you are thinking of her and does she know of anyone you should go see.  
     Maybe let her know you are hoping your email finds her healthy and happy. Also tell her if she ever comes back to get in touch with you right away. Remember girlfriends have a way of mirroring each other's behavior, so maybe she knows someone, not a replacement but it could be worth it. Good luck

They are all unique so stop looking for an exact replacement. I had an ATF that had incall close to me, she squirted and she looked like a friend of my wife's that I had always wanted to bang. I was bummed when she retired and tried to find a replacement, no luck. The first mistake guys made is looking at the physical and assuming you can match the emotional connection. It doesn't work that way.

I absolutely concur on this reply. I found it necessary to stop seeing an ATF. As much as I liked her, I just could not take her drama. I soon found that another lady I had been seeing intermittently was quickly becoming an ATF. Different in many respects from my previous ATF. But none the less a connection was made. Sadly, she left us way too soon. The advise here is good. You can not clone or make exact comparisons.  

girl found on P411.   That is if you are speaking of the girl from your review.    

The unique chemistry 2 people find together is truly irreplaceable; that does not mean other once in a lifetime connections can't be made, they will just be different, and amazing in new and exciting ways.  

Any reason you cannot share who the woman was who retired and maybe some of the other women you have seen and what you did or did not like about them?

Astrid! If she can't make you forget just give up!

Brabantio,