Ok so I've come to realize I've been pretty spoiled over these last three years. I've been seeing two girls regularly over that time period. One was a utr girl who didn't see many people. She was a lot fun and we got along great. We didn't have a hourly rate I would pay a flat rate each visit and we would hang out for how ever long she felt like it. Usually at the very least a couple hours and on the couple rare occasions over night. The only bad thing was she would dissapear for months at a time with out warning. But she would always come back and reconnect. A couple months ago when I saw her last she told me she was leaving for good this time and wanted to let me know so I wasn't wondering/worried which was nice.  
         The other girl was a reviewed girl but not active here on ter boards. We really got along great. Over the time seeing her we really developed a friendship. We spent a lot of otc time together. I would go see her for an hour and it usually turned into two or three cause she wanted to hang out. She would call me to hang out just as friends whether it was going to the movies, going out to eat and drinks or just to hang out at her place. I use to see people post on here asking about her once in a while saying how hard she was to get a hold of so it made me feel special knowing I could text her or call her and she would answer or get back to me rather quickly. Well last month she told me she was leaving the buisness and that I was her last visit. She said she hoped we could still be just friends which I agreed. I've talked to her a couple times over the last month but I don't doubt that we'll eventually lose contact.  
           Going into all this I knew none of it was ever going to be forever but doesn't mean it don't suck when it does finally come to an end. So over the past couple months I lost my two girls. They were both amazing and very special to me and I don't know why I was lucky enough that they both seemed to like me and enjoy my company but I'm glad they did. So now I'm kind of like where do I go from here? I doubt I will ever be able to replicate what I had with these two. Do I give up the hobby? I guess time will tell. I figured I'd share with you guys cause you are the only people I can talk about this part of my life with and I'm sure some of you have gone through similar situations. Well onto the new year.  

But I went on the internet and found more dentist

You can't expect these relationships to last.  Just enjoy them while they do.

I would say the best thing to do is discover another couple of providers that you enjoy the company of.  It is hard to kill feelings of infatuation and passion, but isn't that the reason we hobby? So that we can feel those feelings again and be an appreciated man once again, all while diving into the exciting first moments of getting to know someone new.

What kind responses you've received

I have been on TER now for almost 4 years! Holy COW where does the time go? I remember last year when I was ready to quit - I just graduated, had my "real job" and was ready for things to slow down.... so many people were sad I was leaving or wanting to "stay in touch" in personal life, and I decided to stay a bit longer   So glad I did! I know it will be tough when I REALLY do go, but I hope my friends will find other friends who can be SOMEWHAT like me..... and of course I would provide reference / recommendations for probably 6 months before shutting email down  

Just a little tiny piece of them I keep close to my heart, wrapped up in the memories they have given me. When they move on I'll still have that little piece, that I'll take out and polish up sometimes by re-reading the review I wrote. And if memory shifts a bit over time, and their orgasms get longer, along with my dick, that's just fine.  

Thanks for the replies. I think what sucks the most was them both leaving about the same time. Unfortunatly neither had friends to recomend. Like I said I know these things don't last forever and I don't expect them to. I'm not depressed or anything a little sad it's over but That's natural. I guess I'm just feeling like this was the best the hobby will ever be for me my hobby pinacle. So maybe it's time to move on. Who knows in a couple weeks I'll probably feel different and be searching through reviews. Lol

always enjoyed this little snippet of truth; watch & listen

better link:  
www.youtube.com/watch?v=EjK5BUDZtOs

the hobby glass is ALWAYS half full!  Pick up the phone make a call, go for a drive, dig in your wallet and enjoy!  Open the door when the girls come a knockin'!

keep on movin' on.  Study up on a few providers, maybe even ask on the hobby board for suggestions (post your criteria).  You're sure to get some input.  But, read reviews and past posts or ads of providers that are suggested.  There are a lot of gals out here, I'm certain you'll find a few that are accommodating.  

which ended rather badly.

As hard as this can be to let go of them I feel fortunate to have had the friends I've had. These relationships are temperary by nature so learn to enjoy the time you can have with them.

had a girl this summer that gave me a hell of a deal and I saw her as much as possible and it was a great time. Then all the sudden when the fall started she totally cut me off and ended it saying it was her not me, blah blah blah. Yah at the time it felt like a gf broke up with you because how she said it was how a gf would. Well 2 weeks later someone else came along and then a few months later an old favorite reappeared and so on and so on and my summer favorite has long been forgotten though it would be nice to see her again and catch up but oh well.