I woke up early this morning and couldn't seem to get back to sleep. A lot has been on my mind lately, changes in the industry, changes in my life, changes in me as a person.

A few months back I met someone. This someone was a determined gent, apparently, because I found out the way he met me was not the way that he found me. This gent had been seeing doubles ads that Raven had put up occasionally. Come to find out, he was also in several Yahoo groups that she belongs to also, including her very own Yahoo group. So he was familiar with who I am, and my pictures. I used to be a member of a dating sight on the web, it's the only dating site I've ever been on and I had been on and off of it for about 5 to 6 years, quite some time before I began providing.

Well, apparently he recognized my face pic on the dating site, which come to find out he's a member of many, including the swingers sites and swingers clubs here in Las Vegas. Come to find out, his pursuit of me was more than just a mere interest, it was an obsession.

What I don't understand is how someone lacks the integrity to tell me that he knew me from somewhere else, especially when I was 100% honest with him from the very first day and told him about my alternate lifestyle to give him the option to choose whether he wanted to go any further. That, in my opinion, would have been the appropriate time to tell me he had been watching me. The fact that he didn't tell me, reveals a predator minded way of thinking, self protective and self serving, totally disregarding me as a human being at all.

After a few month of dealing with this struggle, and dealing with the abusive phone calls, emails, and text messages on my phone every time he would see an ad posted for me, I have decided to leave the boards and retreat to a private life style. This has been a difficult decision for me to make because I really enjoy meeting new gents and I have had so much fun. But running into someone like that takes all the fun out of living in general and makes it difficult to even want to wake up in the morning sometimes.

Ladies, a word of caution, while in this industry always be aware that by having your pictures and information out there on the open web, there will be people who will recognize you. I've heard some horror stories of ladies who have been recognized while out and have experienced being stalked and even attacked by drunken strangers who recognized them from an ad they saw. We are prey to those who would seek a victim who is less likely to report the incident for fear of exposure and they play that card to manipulate you. Please be careful, don't go out alone in this city at night and screen your gents carefully, even the one's you meet on a personal level.

To the wonderful gentlemen who have treated me well and with respect, I thank you dearly for the memories and the wonderful reviews. I have enjoyed the private gatherings and value some of the connections I have made while here on this board. Thank you for the experience and lessons learned. I feel I have grown and learned things I can apply to my own personal life and gained knowledge that will help me be more successful in the real world at large.

My retirement date is set for April 30th, I've already removed most of the info from my website and just tidying up some loose ends on another network to leave a form of verification for some of the new gents I have brought into the industry. My email address will still be open for those who wish to contact me in the future but I will no longer be available to chat regularly on that yahoo name.

Again, thank you and blessings to all for a brighter future.

Luck and love,
Miss Marie