I have been told many times recently that I have too much pride, and that I am too quick to make assumptions and act on them before I have all of the facts. Well, I have been screwing up big time and not that I just started this thing......... this has been on going for probably all of my life. I can be really hot headed some times and speak out of turn when I should just STFU.

Seeing this behavior in one of my own children has been an eye opener at an interesting moment, and it brought up some old things. I have realized that there are some situations that we will never have an answer to or understand completely because everyone has free will to feel and think how they want or choose. I can't make someone change how they think or feel about me either, no matter how hard I try. I guess I started trying because when I was young I had someone who doubted everything about me and they were wrong. So my stubborn self set out to prove them wrong. And that is where I went wrong.

I have said some things to some people that I should not have said in this community, and I have made some statements that should have been kept private. I have also come to the realization that just because I have been doing this hobby things for a while, that I still really don't know everything that I should know about it. I also have serious issues with communication. I am not always an easy person to get along with.

I don't expect anyone to respond to this, or even support it. I just wanted those people to know that I am sorry and I will do better.