i was right in ur shoes about 3-4 months ago with a long time atf that gave me everything i wanted, and really great gfe. she was my atf for a good 2 solid years before business started slowing down for her so she left to a diff city to work for a while and i was honestly devastated when she left. she eventually returned after 6 months, i was all excited to see her as well but after the session, it just felt really off like i didn't have that feeling of wanting to rush back instantly the next day or so like i usually did all those times before.
i just feel like with every provider you get close with whether it be a atf giving u great gfe or fwb vibes, you create a spark and connection with them but after they've been gone so long, and you've been seeing diff girls, that connection and spark faded away overtime.
me personally, i tried to keep seeing her but the more i repeated, it just felt like i was forcing myself to repeat than actually wanting to repeat, if that makes any sense. over a span of 2 months, i eventually started dialing it down and eventually only seeing her once a month to do my diligence lmao. she eventually left again though about 2-3 months ago and if she did return this time around, i would probably just move on personally and won't repeat anymore.
i personally had a long time gfe atf for 2 years and another atf that gave me great fwb vibes as well, and i think personally, it's easier to repeat with the fwb than my gfe atf of 2 years.
i would rather move on with that gfe atf though personally but i could still see the fwb atf just once a month but only because she has that magical pussy imo. other than that, i would rather just see the new girls that i've created a new relationship with than to repeat that same gfe atf.