Dear Community,

Though I have experience as a hobbyist, I recently acted so foolishly that one would think I'm a rookie as a hobbyist and a Man...

Recently, I was communicating with a beautiful woman from this Board, and we were setting up plans for a date. I was really excited; we seemed to connect intellectually and I was quite taken with her, and fantasizing about our evening.

Our emails to this point had been fun, intelligent, witty--just a very pleasant bantering back/forth.  Then, I sent her a different email that was vastly inappropriate--sexual, graphic, needy, intense--telling her about what I wanted for our session.  I never thought about what it would be like to receive such an email, let alone out of the blue.  But I was determined to share my hot mess with her, and I screwed everything up.  Providers are not psychologists or therapists. It's important to always be mindful of boundaries.  I did not.

So...the lady in question received the email, and did not respond. I sent her another email apologizing.  No response.  My final effort was to send her a PM asking her to please accept my sincerest apologies.  No response.  Obviously, I have bothered this lady enough and she doesn't want to hear from me again--that's painfully obvious.

I can say to myself "lesson learned," and remind myself to keep correspondence appropriate, always. But what I did really nags at me. This wonderful, beautiful woman's impression of me when from positive to decidedly negative.  Epic fail by me as a hobbyist and Gentleman. How could I do something so stupid?

Fish