No more than 48 hours after I so smugly wrote a piece on wanting the worst, it of course happens to me.  This is what you get when you mock the experiences of a thousand angry men.  You get karma biting you right on sensitive tip of your stupidity.  She had glowing reviews, 7s,8s and even 9s.  Men begging for her attention and saving up their milk money to see her again.  "Its ok that there hasn't been any recent reviews.  How could that body fade? Look at it!"  Mesmerized by experiences that took place during the Bush administration.  The worst part about this tragic hobby is that now I have to have another experience very soon just to cancel out this one and return to a neutral state of fucked.  Laugh away you bastards.

To fully screen you, get references, do a background check...

Just needed to throw that out there. But really, you hear about this a lot, but you also hear about a lot of wonderful experiences.

There are some guys that have a pretty good 'knack' for picking out good ladies. I hear a lot of success stories. If they've been around for a while, they may have had a bad apple or two in the bunch, however.

Look at the 'provider Friday' thread if it pops up this week and see if any of those ladies work for you. Guys have already tried, and you can make a quick decision so you can heal your mind again lol.

END OF MESSAGE

It seems so simple and easy.  Find recent, high quality reviews and go do your thing.   Take the layup.  But this doesn't do it for some of us.  We are too fucked up.  I enjoy hunting on the periphery.  The high risk reward situations that produce some amazing experiences but also some setbacks like last night.  Nobody does this for the sex.  The claim they do but it's secondary to the psychology of the situation.  There's a reason why GFE has become so popular.  It's a temporary suspension of disbelief.  That here is a highly attractive woman who, under normal circumstances, would not give you the time of day but yet in this hour long engagement has made you feel as if you do belong on her level.  That she really does find something about you attractive.  You show up, have small talk, strip, perform a series of emotionless scripted positions and then run home to the computer to inflate and exaggerate it to a bunch of online strangers.  If this is your thing, then that's fine.  I'm not criticizing.  I'm fully aware that I'm the strange one here.  But it fills a need I guess.  There's a level of adrenaline that is addicting when you are completely aware of the fact that you have minimal control of the situation in front of you.  I've been invited back for "off the clock" relations with about half the ones I've seen and have taken about a quarter of those up.  All of them have been short lived but that's more me than them.  But there is absolutely nothing better than meeting somebody for the first time who is new and riding a wave of adrenaline herself.  Both of us participating in an experience that we know we shouldn't be yet loving every second of it.

an Etch-A-Sketch for a brain like I do, forgetting that horrible experience is simple - vigorously shake your head!

Of course, after you write the scathing review to remind yourself and the rest of the world of your disastrous experience....

Many guys say, "She would never give me the time of day" IRL because I'm not on her "level".

I think some think you'd never supply for us unless we give it up - guaranteed. Beauty is a God given tool, as are skills in bed and/or available vaginas, to get a man to supply for us.

It is, for many, a huge turn on when a guy drops the envelope. I.e. be a supplier. We then give you what you're looking for. Your turn on - physical.

Not all think this way, but it is something to consider when thinking about worth. Worth comes not in looks or youth, it's in the gifts you've been given to make the world go round.

Douche bags are not a turn on for me, no matter how hot a guy may be. I have a history to back that up. An intelligent mind, a gentle soul, and a generous heart is.  

Doesn't mean I'd go for any man who has those things, but they are way more important as I feel they match my way of thinking.  

How boring to live the rest of your life with a guy who doesn't think outside of material and popularity or looks. Give me guys who can bring things to another level.  

But the thought you have does help our business some lol.  

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This isn't my mentality or belief.  I'm just going based on what I've read in reviews.  It could be that I've misread some of them but it seems to me that the typical dynamic is the following:

Guy enters room, leaves the envelop, and immediately submits to the provider.  
His mentality now is one of hope.  I hope she does to me what she did to others in the reviews.  I hope I have a good time with her.  I hope she'll let me do this or that.  

The initial envelop drop may very well be a huge turn on.  Of course it is.  There is nothing in the world more flattering than somebody trading hours or days of hard work for one hour of naked time with you.  And worshipping you the entire time.  But then what?  What does the guy get out of it but a predetermined series of physical engagement?  What everybody wants is to extract something more than everyone else has gotten.  This is how us men are geared.  It's how we are genetically designed.  It could come in the form of a compliment or a conversation or a sexual act or an elevated level of detectable passion.  It may very well be a lie but if the brain believes it then the body knows no difference.  

Now what does the provider get out of it?  Sure there are going to be times when the man is attractive and engaging.  When it doesn't even feel like a job.  You respect who they are and the situations they are in and its a very nice time.  However, isn't this more the exception than the rule?  A constant stream of submissive and complimenting men has to lose its allure over time.   Now think back to your first few weeks and how you felt.  The fear, the worry, the excitement and the elation of the realization that you like doing this.  Think back to the first attractive male you had.  How you couldn't believe he is actually paying you.  How you felt amazing for days afterwards.    

Again, I'm different than most but I respect everyone that participates because everyone here is an active participant in seeking out happiness in their life with varying degrees of risk.  They're not just sitting at home complaining

professionally if you don't already.  I find Sage has great writing skills too.

ut but but she deserved it.  

I think the problem here might be that the reviews on this site don't reflect the personalities of the majority of clients.  I think there is a template that most reviewers follow that seems to repeat a consistent theme. The theme which I mentioned earlier.  Maybe reviewing in itself requires a certain type.  Also I believe that there is pressure to both write glowing reviews for well established providers as well as rank their looks and performance higher.   I believe this is because of the lack of true anonymity.  Lastly, I think there is a mentality to rank the higher priced providers according to donation size in a sort of rationalization of paying it.   I'm fairly new here so I might be wrong.

Very smartly written, I really enjoyed reading this.

Have to say I am incredibly interested in this different perspective than usually is posted here. One that I happen to have been thinking quite a bit about lately. I wish I was as eloquent.
I've found myself in a difficult relationship with a provider; lines get blurred sometimes.
Looking forward to the ensuing discussion!

I don't think anyone is laughing at you, doll!  You win some, you lose some!

XXX-Giselle Parker

Send them my way too lol!

The rest of this post was very cool as well. Good word!