Hey everyone. So, here's where I'm at. I've been in the hobby for 2 1/2 years now. In that time, I've had difficulty finding a really sexy, passionate provider. Outside of escorts and agencies, occasionally I'll also frequent the RI strip club scene and AMPs. In all my experiences, it's been difficult to find what I'm looking for. Most girls are very pleasant, nice, talkative, but the actual session is, well, kind of mechanical, when I'm looking for down and dirty. I'm finding a lot girls don't like to kiss, they barely make an effort to touch me at all, it's leaving me kind of gun shy about it. Because what's been happening is, I can't stay hard. Then I feel bad, the girls feel awkward and the whole scene just gets weird. I'm a big believer in the whole 'the largest sex organ is the brain' thing. And if the girl doesn't make an effort to seduce me or get me going mentally- in other words I'm not getting lost in the fantasy- then I can't get hard no matter how hot and sexy she is physically.
I don't think it's me. I'm attractive, thin, in great shape, very polite, nice, I dress nice, clean shaven, shower when I get there, trimmed in all the right areas, have respect for all protocols, fresh breath, the whole deal. So, where are all the passionate, take charge kind of girls? Do they exist? It's also tough just being a basic member on TER. Being a VIP would help, I'm sure, but right now I just can't afford it. I tried to bite the bullet and just go for one, just to get a review in, but the review was rejected, so I'm back at square one. I had an opportunity to see someone on Sunday but decided not to, because I was afraid the same scenario was going to happen. So now I don't know what to do.
Any insight would be appreciated. Thanks everyone for listening to my rant!