First off, hi Lena! So lovely to see you on here
I've found myself experiencing DomSpace more frequently and have been doing similar reflections. I've always been a very strong person (ask me about my bench press lol) and grew up riding horses and competing regionally and nationally. The power, strength, and confidence it takes to control a 2000lbs animal was intoxicating to me. The deep emotional connection, clear communication, and consent based dynamic is what had me hooked. All the beautifully crafted leather was a great bonus!
In my early 20s I accompanied a friend to a random rope workshop at a members only dungeon and was so excited to feel those strong emotions come back to me. It turns out the skills I cultivated with horses could be applied to two legged mammals as well! I became a member, signed up for every workshop, attended play parties, and began my BDSM journey.
I feel so at home in my dominance and I've even started redesigning some of my tack (leather accoutrements for horses) into wearable pieces for myself and my subs. As someone who is very friendly, warm, and laid-back, I find so much maniacal joy in also being sadistic and dominant. The juxtaposition fuels my desire to cultivate my sadism and to take myself and my subs into more depravity while smiling and cracking dad jokes the whole way!
Thanks so much for asking this question. It's always fun to look back and to reflect on the skills I've developed and the ways my dominance has shaped who I am as a person.