so I have some carpet burns on my knees and toes, a few small bruises on my breasts and ass, a sore twat...still.  LOL  I had some incredible oral sex and a few climaxes!  And a little fucking too!  I met a wonderful sexy lady named Kelly that has a camper on site that gave me an open invite anytime (she goes up every single weekend)   I have to say that The Grove has come a long ways from when Brooke and I were there a few years ago for my birthday.  They have done major renovations to the Charter House where everyone plays and it is very nice!  It looked like a dungeon a few years ago, but very, very nice now.  Plus, the have moved towards being more swinger friendly than nudists now.  A lot of very hot people and I will definitely return.  I don't think I am having anxiety any more about coming back.  The problem is my life is very busy with my business and I have reached an age where my parents and child need me more.  But FUN is important and I am so glad that I found playfulness again!  Last night I went super blonde with my hair and I am ready to go forth and have some fun now!  It's just a time issue.  Would feel a lot better if I could get 10-15 lbs off but haven't found the willingness to eat better yet or the time to work out.  I am so appreciative of all the thoughtful pm's.  Yes, I have read every single one of them, usually late at night.  Although I haven't responded much, I have read every sweet word.  Give me a few months and I will be ready to come visit.  I am thinking it will be easier for me to see people I already know at first and see how it goes.  Take good care and thanks for welcoming me back.  Wishing everyone a lot of fun, happiness, and love...it is the very essence of why we are here.  Love and Light, Madison  (by the way, I didn't proof read this, typing at work)  lol