I know you must be pretty much aware that I am posting on this board. You know this is exactly why I left Germany. people complain too much and whenever somebody is successful or happy they have to talk it down.

I am fine where I am at in my life. I went to the US because just like you suggested I saw bigger opportunities here and yes also the chance of earning more. I have made a good name for myself in the US porn industry and I know that I would have never gotten that far in my home country. yes and you are right, it is totally the case that my looks are way more appreciated here in the US than in Europe - just makes it more of a logical decision to move. When I was 23 years old I could already foresee all of this. So what you say is true: I would have never been anybody in my home country and that's why I moved to the US where I saw more potential for myself. if anything that should speak for myself. and you are probably right: I would maybe only make 1/10th of what I am making here so again, that just shows how smart my decision was to leave Germany.

I don't care what you think about my choices in life, really I don't. I could have stayed in Germany and finished up my college education but I also know that there is not much going on in the East of Germany and by now I would probably be very frustrated. I decided to not sit there and wait it out and receive government funds. I wanted to go out in the world and see where life leads me.

I am very proud of myself. I am proud that I moved across the world to a place where I didn't know a soul. When I got here I had 200 bucks in my pocket. Now I just bought my own house, all by myself and that it something I am very proud of. Yes I can see how I got there might not be a great achievement in some people's eyes but it was my journey and I did it my way.

and as far as my German accent goes: the great people of the US taught me to be proud of myself and proud of who I am. I am very grateful for this because people in my own country never made me realize how important your background is to who you are in life. My East German heritage is part of who I am and I like it that way. You can make fun of if all you want it won't change that for me. I will always be the girl from East Germany somewhere in my heart - even if I apply for US citizenship next year.

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yes there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt
I ate it up and spit it out
I faced it all and I stood tall and I did it MY WAY