One of the big expectations I had when I entered this hobby was the one of not really careing should the time come to move on from a favorite provider. How wrong I was. The rememberence of better times and shared laughter are still a cause for longing even though it was a relationship of business. It actually hurts more that throwing money at the problem could not solve it.
The fact of having a "short list" is of some comfort. True to my nature though; I wish it needed only one entry.
HTZ
Why move on ? There is nothing wrong with seeing the same lady. I've been doing it for over a year. Do you get attached ? Of course you do, but I know there is no future for us. I'm just enjoying the moment with her. To me the familarity and intimacy you develop is so much better than jumping around trying out the new eros hardbody of the week. I also limit my visits to every 4-6 weeks. This helps keep it in perspective and we both appreciate and look forward to seeing each other. I also do see others once in awhile.