Ya know, i usually set up my dates alittle in advance if at all possible. The couple times in the past i've done something spur of the moment, i wished i hadn't(but those are tales for another time). Anyways, i'm driftin' off here, back to the topic at hand.

Since i plan in advance it always means that a conformation call is in order the day of to make sure we're both still on the same page and nothing big has come up.

I'm sittin' there today trying to figure a way to clone myself so i can fix everything thats breaking and or going wrong in a timely fashion(this has been one of those days that make me wonder why i don't drink anymore). The phone rings, i pick it up. I'm not thinking of who may be on the other end, my brain is in passing gear with a shitload of other stuff going on. So i grab the phone and say "Hello......." She's on the other end of the line. I kick my old man outta the office, not that he would really care one way or the other what i do with my private time and we talk for a few. Everything is great on her end and we're still set. Dinner at 7 and god only what after.

But then about a half hour after i hung up it hit me. The days problems are much smaller, my mood is much better. Things aren't bothering me. Sure, they're still f#*&ed up, but it will be ok. It's not because she is such a good friend or anything more then that, we've never even met in person yet. But i also realized that it's like this every time i see a lady.

I'm totally fine until the the day of...... until the call. I know i'm going to see her for a week or sometimes maybe even longer in advance but i doesn't affect me until that phone rings and the she's on the other end the day of our meeting. It doesn't matter who the lady is, it happens with every one. Everything melts away in anticipation of the evening to come and then all i can do is count down the minutes like a an 8 year old waiting for the gates at Disneyland to open.

Is it just me?? I suppose it wouldn't be much of a surprise to find that it was, i've been accused of being all types of strange in the past, and i imagine rightfully so. But i gotta say, it's a more pwerful high then anything i ever tried in high school, or any other part of life(and yes, i did inhale back then, lol)

Damn, i need a third job!

Snow  


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