I have a regular provider who rocks my world every time. Multiple shots, BBBJTC, everything I require.
I also have an SO who gives me everything I ask for.
So why is it I still seek out strange and uncharted waters.
Will I ever grow out of this?

The ability to control someone you have never met before, the money and power to persuade someone to do *that*...

Are you bragging or you are asking for help?

its called sex addiction. the shock of the new flesh, the unknown, the anticipation and the uncertainty of the encounter!
i think most of us suffer from it. i know i do !!!