I don't know why it still shocks me considering we live in a country that puts an over emphasis on being blonde and skinny with huge unnatural boobs but for some reason it still surprises me to see that some people are not just prejudiced but disrespectful to large women.

I can understand if you are not attracted to large women, why not just ignore us and focus on people you are attracted to? What is the point in emailing, IM'ing, calling, responding to big women and calling them names and being just plain mean.
I'm not attracted to black men but i don't search the internet for black men to harass and make negative comments to. I focus on people I am attracted to.

Everyday I get about 4 emails or IM's from people commenting negatively on my size and almost EVERYTIME I post on a message board someone makes a comment about my size.

What is these people's point?

It's not the comments that bother me cause I get told every day by numerous guys how beautiful I am so my self esteem is booming, lol,
There use to be a time when I fell into this society's trap of thinking only skinny is beautiful and wanted desperately to lose weight to the point that my self esteem was so low I would lie in my bed and cry for days. I would go on numerous diets and take hard-core RX diet pills and yes I lost quite a bit of weight but my self esteem didn't improve.

As a matter of fact my self esteem didn't become healthy until I became an escort and found out that there is a whole market of men who actually prefer big women and for some the bigger the better.
They are all kinds of guys, and surprisingly a lot are really hott!!
Actually there was a recent guy who I thought was soooooooo hott and he told me he preferred to just see Rose because he likes bigger girls. Now he sees Rose like 2-3 times a week. Argh! I was so upset I wanted to go and eat a gallon of ice-cream, unfortunately I was too lazy to get up and go to the grocery store.
I don't even want to lose weight now because I don't want to lose my edge on this niche in the market. The guys who adore bigger women are incredibly sweet, respectful and just plain adorable I don't want to lose them, lol
And now that I've discovered Lane Bryant there is no reason for me to lose weight. I do want to get healthier though because I have asthma and very weak lungs that I have to take steroids for which tends to bloat me up so I bought a treadmill to help me strengthen my lungs.

Anyway I'm getting off track here

What bothers me is that people actually take the time to post this crap and these negative comments.
Don't these people know that it's a waste of time?
Don't they realize that these comments only prove to me that I don't want to get smaller because then I'd attract classless, tactless superficial guys who don't have a brain of their own and have been brainwashed by television commercials and advertising?
Do they think they are going to get me to lose weight cause they are classless and tacky enough to post opinions about my size?
I don't get it.

For instance today I got this email (and this is just one of many):

Subject: Vicki Minnesota Appointment
Date: 2/12/04 11:05:59 AM Eastern Standard Time

Name: anti fat hookers who hoe themselves on the 'net

Email: [email protected]

CellPhone: 0001234567

Date: when hell freezes over

Time: when you lose 500 lbs
Comments: why would anyone want to PAY to see you naked. The only place you should go with your clients is to Jenny Craig you fat ugly COW

Do you see what I mean?
someone please comment and tell me what the point is.