What I mean to say is, I miss the crisp heightened sensual awareness of a brand new experience. I don't necessarily miss the "good ole days".
I miss my own beginning this journey.
I miss those butterflies in my belly when I was going out on a new outcall. I miss setting up my brand new incall spot, just imagining what a new client would think. I miss the learning, the exploring, the curiosity. I miss my own insecurity thinking about what I would do if he simply doesn't like me. (it never happened) I miss those crinkling nervous moments that came before he rang the doorbell, or buzzed up, those crackling electric seconds before that first kiss.
Newness of experience. I sometimes wish I wasn't such a seasoned cynic.
… Forrest Gump said, “I think it’s both”. I mean, I’ve experienced a lot of “good ole days”, but there’s still exploring and learning when I meet a provider for the first time.
I do remember my first time, not that it was particularly great, but it was after all the first time. I also vividly remember first times, and some later times, with many of the wonderful women I’ve been lucky to meet over the years. Many have retired, but some ladies I’ve seen for years are still active, still exceptional, and I still get excited each time I walk through their doors.
I’ve seen one provider on a regular basis, with the exception of a few breaks each of us took, for nearly eleven years. I don’t know if she feels “crackling electricity” before our first embrace and kiss when we get together, but I do.
But start all over again? No thank you!
They get bored, no matter what.
Even though later ones may actually be better (and very often are), there's still something missing.
The reason why those times with someone in the beginning are so boiled over are due to our brain and body being flooded with hormones, endorphins and oxytocin, that typically only show up in copious amounts in the beginning. As time moves on, those hormones are still there but they are not fueling both people as much. You can still have great times, exciting times, amazing time, but it will typically not be as hot as it was in the very beginning because you're not being flooded with as many endorphins or as much oxytocin.