For the past 6 months I've been giving it a go in the civilian world for dates.  What a pain in the ass.  Drama, drama, drama.  I'm done with that.  It's hobbying forever from now on!  So much easier! Lol

It's a disaster. London keeps me in check lol. I do on purpose to only mess with married and attached guys assuming they will not get all caught up, and it never fails... most still do. It's ok if they want to go fk everyone in the city, but oh no... I can't do the same? Right. I am not trying to fall in love... I am trying to NUT lol.

I courted a Turkish belly dancer for almost one and half years, pampering, big tips  and buying gifts and going to every place where she danced before she agreed to go on a date.   We had several dinner dates and we are at a point to go all the way pretty soon.    My patience held out and I even canceled my plans of leaving US and going to another country as she is fucking gorgeous and beautiful that money cannot buy.

I couldn't get a civvie date or g/f if my life depended upon it... No decent lady with a half a brain would give me the time of day for very long. Nothing to look at or get excited about and a dead end job get you no where...

That's why I hobby too!  I'm married, but I still like to get a little "strange" every once in awhile.  I've tried flirting with married women, they will flirt and play along.  But as soon as they get the dick, they lose their minds!!!  Stalking, want to leave their families, etc...  It's not like I'm Gods gift or anything.  But I love to treat a Lady like a Lady.  I'm a gentleman, and apparently their aren't too many women that get treated that way?

Shouldn't you be in AU by now? Just wondering.

Hey now! The words we say about ourselves are the very reason we have the lives we do... you have to first start changing the words that come out of your mouth about yourself and your belief will eventually catch up with what you say. You have worth regardless of how you look or where you work and it is no accident that you're on this earth.  

Quote: "I'm married, but I still like to get a little "strange" every once in awhile".   To be fair to your married wife why not set her up with a willing male hobbyist (same ethnicity) so your wife can have fun too!     Another option, even better,  find another married hobbyist and do 'wife swap' once in a while for a change.    Equal Opportunity Fucking !

ell spoken...
 

I am volunteering to be a member of your support group.

in life that is all we can control, "what we think about"

You sent this to the OP but I needed to hear it. Thanks