I thought we were getting to be friends. She gave me her real name and number and we went on dates off the clock. She was fun to be with but after all these agencies closed up, she disappeared and doesn't answer my texts (maybe she got rid of that phone).

I guess stalking her would be wrong and creepy but I just want to know she's ok. She wasn't with GC or L&S. And she's not popping up on arrest lists, so I guess she's safe.  

I just miss her.

Damn you gals are so good at making everything seem genuine.

It sounds like she did both of you a favor.

Unless you were ready to give her more? Truly ready, I mean.

I'm just saying I thought we were friends. And if it becomes difficult to make a living when your agency shuts down and everything looks risky, I would think she'd want to keep in touch at least as a source of some help. But maybe she has friends and places to go.

Good lord man, snap out of it

Everyone loves that new provider smell. Lol

I had my ATF fall off the face of the earth. I was really missing her, probably too much. Then I met a provider who's destined to be my new ATF.

To th OP: another will come along.

Hey man, you hurt my feelings with that response.  
But now that you mention it ... I could use a pedicure.

Yeah, I know what you're saying ... But you know you've had those times when it was like trying out a new restaurant and you kept being disappointed. I'm just bummed that I had a good one that I really liked. Oh, I just happen to like sticking to one provider.

Anyway - all these guys on here are gonna play like "real" men and act like they never feel this way for their ATF.

So, It's not really that big a deal. It's something I can "snap out" of now.

I miss my references. After all of these agencies closed up they just disappeared........  
I'll just miss them.  
Damn you gals sure were good at record keeping

Dude, believe me most of us know where you are coming from.
She did you just right, she looked just how you like. She smell nice and taste so good.
She pushed those buttons right and she cum good for you too.

Trust me there is a better one out there in space and time.  So RELAX, it
will take time but she is there.

Good luck my man.

that record keeping might be a problem.  Every agency and provider always told me they
don't keep records!  lol

I get it. Had an awesome young muscular girl get close to me. She shared a lot about herself but also started to share how much she hated the biz. Killed the magic a bit. Then something weird happened with her ex and she disappeared overnight without a word.

My advice - don't get close to these girls or, if you do, expect this to happen. Also someone shared this advice with me years ago - "only someone soft as shit can love someone hard as nails". And every single lady in this biz is hard as nails because that's the job.

Tough to remember that at times.  But things like this just remind you how "in the moment" this world is.  And how people come and go.  Faster than real life.. but it also happens there too- but not quite as abruptly.

I feel your pain.  But time to move on.  Your timing sucks though...

Not your provider, not your pussy, just your turn.
lol lessons learned from my father I think.

I know I know.  
I even knew when she had seen a client just before me but would still make it feel like it was only me she ever spent time with. She really was very good at GFE.

So, since I would only see her, that's why I called her "my" provider.

I totally understand how you gals work and that's why it works. It works out for everyone when you can keep from getting emotionally involved. But at least she would answer and let me know if she was available when I wanted to see her. Now it's radio silence. I guess I'm sad to think even simple friendship was feigned. It would have been nice to know if she just wanted a break or felt like it was time to retire. Anyway, I'm getting over it.

Ginger, I see you all over these threads. It seems you belong to everyone. You are so popular.

You sound confused about your feelings.

First you say you're just concerned about her safety.

Now you sound possessive and pissed that she "feigned" her friendship with you. Who are you to say that's what happened?

And how do you know when she saw other guys before seeing you?

Honestly to me you don't sound safe.

Very well said as usual Miss Taylor.

When you spend time with a woman and she makes you feel like you are the only person in the world - that's the ultimate compliment for a man.  Don't try to complicate both your lives by intruding in her space when you aren't together.  It's a fantasy.  And it should stay that way.  IMHO.

To the OP, many people are spooked right now - who knows what happened?  Remember the good times and find someone new and delightful to visit with.  There are many amazing ladies in this fine city.

Find a new favorite.

Or two...

I didn't really get that "pissed off" vibe in the OP...  more of a "hurt" thing (which is why there were all those "be a man and get over it comments") - but I am not you and I don't do this for a living....  

Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.

I sense much fear in the OP of this thread.

I knew that sounded familiar... and if you'll remember Luke didn't actually go over to the dark side.... though certainly Darth Vader did....  

But REALLY NOW.

C'mon guys - give the man a break.

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Ah, I let my VIP membership expire so I can't read any PMs.

Thanks for the advice everyone, they all made sense.
I just posted something I was feeling at the time and I forgot how people like to make judgments and share their conclusions from their quick analysis of something with little details.

Not sure where the "fear" stuff started and where it was going.

I would recommend paying the 20 bucks if she was worth it to you.

Souperman you can pm the information if you want.
lol

That's why you should always have at least two. Somewhere to go when you feel the need and then come home ad look in the mirror of life. We are all polygamists here. like it or not we see other people and there in no future in jealous feelings. Life is short. Live in the moment,  treat others as you want to be treated and make one life enough.

Stop showing natural human emotions! Guys aren't supposed to do that! Get it together!  

Sheesh. Machismo attitude is beyond passe. Kudos to OP for going against the grain. Let's stop shaming men for being human beings, shall we? It's 2017, so we can now start acknowledging that every emotionally healthy human develops emotional bonds. It's so unhealthy to pretend otherwise. Just a thought.