have been a humanitarian, a shoulder to cry on, (literally), and have shown true compassion for a provider in need! Sadly, many providers, (and hobbyists), have low self esteem, are addicts, alcoholics, or are Bi Polar. You have gone above and beyond, and I hereby elevate you to Saint Beavis!
OK, I'm not going to post who the provider in question was, except to say that, A. She has good reviews, and B. there was at least one reviewer who alluded to suspecting that she was on something.
That said, let's call her Lucy. I went to see Lucy, and she was all jittery right from the beginning. We went for dinner, at which point she got an anxiety attack. We then went back to the hotel, where we took a shower, but, right after we took a shower, she got all twitchy again, and started apologizing over and over for how she is, how she hates how she is right now, and thanking me for being patient. Then, she sort of curled up into a fetal position, and just asked me to hold her. (It was a multi hour appt, so) So, anyway, I just held her for pretty much the whole session, and tried (unsuccessfully, I think) to just calm her down. Eventually, she gave me _back_ all the money, and asked me if I would just hold her till the morning. (We didn't have that long of an appt.) After a while, she told me, that she was planning on quitting the business, and I asked her if that was why she was on what she was on, and she burst into tears.
Here's my question: That's the 4th provider that's happened to me with (of I dunno, at least in the hundreds) Back in the day before the internet bust, I actually helped the first one who did that to me through school, when I was more able (after she quit, I mean). (Unfortunately, I don't make enough to do that any more). After a while the first one, we'll call her Sarah, would also tell me things like "Why is sex not enough, why must they also humiliate us in the process??" (Name calling is what she meant, I'm sure you can figure out the names.), and "Some of them don't even want to know anything about us, so they don't have to feel anything for us." (Which echoes a lot of reviewers complaining about a provider who "chats too much" or "won't shut up").
Am I a sucker that my heart breaks when I hear these stories? That I suspect that it's probably true of more than just the 4/100's of providers I've seen, and that I must be a special breed of asshole, having heard first hand from more than one provider how they don't like it, and am still unable to control my urges, so I keep returning...
*sigh*. How do I put my conscience to rest?
As for Lucy, even tho she gave me my money back, I called the agency, and told them what happened, etc, and payed them what she gave me. (If she was having misgivings about the business, I certainly didn't want to push a wad of hundreds onto her, but, I also didn't want her to get into trouble...)
Anyway, all thoughts appreciated, from hobbyists, but, perhaps more so from providers. (PM me if you'd rather do that)
Wheres Bracco when I need her?
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have been a humanitarian, a shoulder to cry on, (literally), and have shown true compassion for a provider in need! Sadly, many providers, (and hobbyists), have low self esteem, are addicts, alcoholics, or are Bi Polar. You have gone above and beyond, and I hereby elevate you to Saint Beavis!
Why did you give the sponsorship back if you both know you had an awful time. Clearly she knew it which is why she returned it to you in the first place.
I have to say you're a REALLY nice guy. I'd like to think of myself as pretty nice but if someone balled up on me and started bawling I'd be outtie. Who the heck wants to deal with that? This is supposed to be FUN! Don't get me wrong, we all have our down moments but just because you're sitting face to face with someone does't mean you have to stay and watch the scene.
Best of luck to you. I hope you find your rockin' good time!
xo
laney
just a good person, and I'll admit better than me. I have to side w/ Laney on this. I think you did enough, I take it back you went above and beyond.
that your kindness will be repaid in karma, and not in some distant life, but here and soon.
I likewise was always being asked to help out a provider I know well, and when I could, I did.
They provided me a lot of moral strength later on when I needed it.
The world does give back.
Its happened to many of us. If one out of 10 of us are "good guys" and it happens once in 25 to each of us. Than its 1 out of 250 in a pretty disfunctional world!
"Lucy" was in desperate need of help. She was obviously at a crisis in her life and she needed the hugs, warmth and support you could provide more than she needed the money.
I would hope that every man who finds himself in your situation would react the way you did, but I know that is not the case. There must be a special place in heaven reserved for those who come to the aid of strangers.