....was addicted to them around the time I came up with my provider name.
It was look around at what's in the room and pick something kind of thing lol.
Once you decided to jump into the hobby, how did you come up with your provider name?
When I was still in elementary school, ladies' romance magazines were a forbidden but tantalizing lure into the adult world. Every article promised a mysterious pleasure that was just out of my reach.
"I knew I should resist his advances, but when he touched me..."
"One woman's secret rendezvous with lust..."
I'd grow warm between my legs as I read the barely-veiled accounts of illicit encounters. As I slipped into the world of trembling hands, hard kisses and racing pulses, my own incipient urges demanded their due. Exploring my own sweet girlhood, the pages of Modern Romance formed the backdrop: shuddering, velvet-leaved and imbued with eroticism.
One night my eyes lit on a portrait of a man overwhelmed by passion, literally sweeping an unresisting beauty into his arms. "Tabu," it touted, "the forbidden perfume."
Ah, I thought, what kind of power must that woman be hiding, to create a desire so rebellious, so ardent. My quickened heartbeat memorized the syllables of her allure.... Tabu. Tabu. Tabu.
When it came time to unleash the confident and sexual woman I eventually became, there seemed no other possible choice. My tigress would not be a girl next door or a long-suffering slattern. She would be the darkly welcome addiction-- one who would drive men to make secret visits in the shadows, to work long hours in the service of her demands, and one who would answer their passion with a desire as hungry as their own.
Every day she lives in me as real as my heartbeat. Because becoming Tabu is a transformation that leaves unchanged the essence of my true self... the little girl, enthralled. The woman, unbound.
My favorite porn star -Sasha Grey 😎 who basically taught me everything I know. Stolin has a strong ring to it and comes from Eastern Europe just like me 😁
You are drop dead gorgeous and far sexier tha Sasha Grey!!!
I mean Ms Grey is pretty cool , but she's no Sasha Stolin
....was addicted to them around the time I came up with my provider name.
It was look around at what's in the room and pick something kind of thing lol.
As I sit here and want to type a response to the question, the truth strikes me as funny.
Before I was this.... a provider, as politely worded as that is, I was an "exotic dancer" (stripper lol I'm not one of those "offended" types. It is what it is.)
The bartender of the club, who ended up being one of my very best friends here over 10+ years, was the one who dubbed me, "You look like a "Foxy."
Years before, my very mischievous HS BFF had tried to get me to work at an Escort Agency with her (tried & was successful, for a year or so.) - and I picked "Sinaman." (Sin-A-Man, get it? lol Cinnamon.... lol)
But Sinaman never stuck. It didn't "feel right."
Now years later, after heading back to the "Industry"- I let her, the bartender of the strip club, pick- and oddly, it felt right. Pretty soon, even on our outings, to local watering-holes, karaoke nights, etc, (adding in also, an Epic late-night party at our strip club, after-hours after strippers, free beer keg type of weekend After-Party...) My life became intertwined with the people from the club- (early 20's, what can I say? Kid free, stripping, & every weekend was a PAR-TAY lol) I enjoyed a chorus of "Foxaaaayyyyy" whenever I was out & about...
Now it's been a few years & I left the club life.... have worked doing temps jobs, factory, & then live-in care, had a kid, settled down, and now privately provide when I can-
I have read that a "good provider should have a name that appears as a realistic type name" (Not "Diamond, Princess, or Foxy" ha-ha...) I have chewed on several names, and I think eventually I will go with the one I am leaning towards, but I guess a small nostalgic part of me, the one who STILL has people in my pseudo family who ONLY call me Foxy, and if you even come around saying my legal name, they will assume you are some government worker or law... lol .. (Ok rambling now, I realize...!) But no other name feels right to me yet, but Foxy.
Foxy I am, and Foxy I will be, until I am no longer "Foxy."
Funnily enough, the bartender's Granny in her 70's, still see her, and she calls me "Foxy" too!
Gonna be hard to change that. I have even tried.
(Hey, I'm trying not to go by Foxy anymore, would you mind PLEASE using my real name?..... *crickets* "Ok, Foxy." *facepalm* )
Old habits are hard to break!
I have read (a lot) also, one notable "psychological thing" of "separate personas"... Girls, saying "In real life I am ________ this way, but when I provide, I am ______________ this way."
Kinda of like Beyonce talking about Sasha Fierce.
I don't get that. LMAO
I guess I feel like I go into "Foxy" mode, and I am at my most on-point, "best self"- but having two sets of personalities?
I don't get it.
I'm like Popeye, "I yam who I yam."
And these days.... I am still Foxy.
Foxy
Foxy