Zoe/Pamela

It sounds like this is not something you want to be doing. Your hesitancy, "dread" will come across to your client. I have been with providers who LOVE doing what they do, and can sense that.
Or maybe they are great actresses.

But if the negative energy is there it will wear you down

is scheduled in a couple of weeks, and I'm definitely not dreading it. These 2 weeks can't go fast enough for me! I don't think crawling back will be difficult at all. It's sex. Sex is fun. You're over thinking it.

those were the years I met my wife and before she more or less cut me off.  I did continue however to see gals for a rub and tug about once a month or so, so maybe this isn't the best example.

I recall my first date in 1989, though the provider wasn't very good, I certainly was glad to be getting it again.  In time I met some excellent providers and I was off to the races, so to speak.

If this uneasiness, or difficulty persists, then I have to agree with others that this is not the career for you.  I assure you your lack of confidence will be detected and it will turn off your clients.

Besides, you are not being fair to yourself.

Was this an issue for you when you first began to provide and did you get over it?

As a client, I had a lot of trepidation about seeing escorts for the first few years that I indulged (About once a month, on average, not counting MPs.)  But it subsided after that.

before only .  
however the week before that was balld to the wall ten appts in 6 days and i just got burnt out after.  

but like if i only take one appt a week, like this week and last week.  

  I am like more sensitive to touch, my nipples my pussy, If i do appts every day for a week i get into a zone and am like on a zone type thing.

but yeah then when you do only one for entire week, your like all actin like your a virgin or something, I definetly experience that!

Yep!

In the Fall I returned to the fun after 10 years of self-imposed retirement -- I happened to be travelling and decided to take the plunge again.  That first night I was a nervous wreck... and wasted far too much time because the lovely lady expected me to make the first move.  Our 3 hour evening was fine, but I knew it (and I!) should/could have been better.  Since then I have met with a few terrific ladies, and thankfully muscle memory has returned.    A few weeks ago I happened to be back in that same city and met again with the same lady from the Fall.  This time we decided to have a 4 hour dessert, terrific dinner and dessert, and more dessert date.  The evening was WONDERFUL -- far better than our first date!  I think she had fun too... as she offered a re-do the following night at a reasonably reduced rate.

Baby girl it's not crawling back, ok?

Head held high because you are a FABULOUS woman!!!

Steph xoxo