I have a very special friend that I go out with just about every weekend. He makes me feel like the most special lady (and I use that term loosely) on the planet. And I do my best to make him feel special as well (although he is FAR better at it than I). By the middle of the week, I'm totally looking forward to our plans for our next get together.
We value and respect each others feelings
One time I realized I said something I shouldn't and I felt awful!!!! I have made it a point to watch what I share. We both know each other hobbies, but when we are together.....we are together
Jessica, I feel what you call "honesty" in your relationship is hurtful to you. I also feel you are trying to convince yourself it's not
Sure you BF is intitled to a guys night out. But I feel if you should show up, he should watch his mouth
One more thing and I'm done....you talk about how important it is that he is able to be "honest" (although that's not what I would call it). What about you? Are you alowed to be honest? or do you think that because you are in the hobby and are keeping that from him that you don't deserve to share your feelings and be heard? Maybe you're afraid if you don't let him talk to you like one of the guys, you'll lose him. Maybe you're compromising yourself in order to keep a guy.
If this post makes you mad at me, please remember that it was made out of love...not judgement. Not long ago I was kind of/sort of in a similar situation. Now that I can look back, I realize I deserved better. I only want the best for you.