Thanks. I expect you are correct, that this will pass soon.  That would make the most sense.  I never asked for any of this to begin with.  She volunteered it all, under no pressure for me.  Maybe at the beginning, I filled some temporary void in her life.  I will be bummed out if it ends bitterly though.  

When I do visit again, I will be taking steps to make sure she is not feeling used.  Hopefully when we move on for good, at least the memory will be fond.  I feel that is owed, as some of what has happened will enrich me for a long time after we part company for good.  I went into this hobby expecting just a series of short "all business" transactions.  This situation has seriously surprised, and somewhat disoriented me.